CD9

So its been a few days, I am plodding along nicely. Definitely in a different state of mind now. Passing that milestone really helped me completely move on. I feel like I am back at the start now. I have no urgency feeling to TTC, I feel like I have my life back in the blink of an eye. All without doing anything.

Snap and my world changed. It is good though to have this sense of complete calm. I know I will have a baby. I don't know when but I only get one shot at this life so I might as well live it and when bubby does come we will be so happy. This is definitely my last month TTC. Next month it will be nothing, no temping, no charting, no drugs. And I actually feel really peaceful because of that.

I am still preparing the nursery by painting the furniture and the walls etc and slowly buying baby stuff. We will need it eventually.

I have been catching up with heaps of my friends that I haven't seen in ages because I have been so caught up in the world of TTC and they simply don't understand it. But its been nice catching up with them all and realising there is a world full of excitement out there.

Went for a run yesterday. So looking forward to finding some fitness again. I ran well but it was a fast run, walk, fast run walk lol! Very unfit, but you have to start somewhere. Our gym as been cleared out after months of being a storage room so I am looking forward to getting back in there! Need to re strengthen my core. With my spina bifida occulta my lower back can cause me a lot of grief and I need strong core muscles. Something I have really let go recently.

Finally I just wanted to say a great big heart felt thank you to all those that sent me hugs and thoughts and kind worlds over the last week or so. I did go through a tough week and the support from you all was unwavering and so very greatly appreciated. I don't know what I would have done without you all. You girls are my rock! All of you :) and from the bottom of my heart I thank you!

GJ you are in my thoughts every minute of my day. I really hope you and bub will be OK. I have been sending you telepathic stickiness in hope that it helps bubby stick it out for either full term or at least till he/she can come out safely. I honestly don't understand why this horrible shit has to keep happening. Its good to see your trying to stay positive it must be so hard for you and your an amazing woman to keep strong. Big hugs beautiful.

Summa :( :( :( :( again more horribleness! Just want to give u a really really big hug. So sorry that again this wasn't your month! It truly just isn't fair! Boo to the universe!

GS!!!! YAY!!! WOOHOO!! your body is working...your body is working......I really hope that 100mg clomid slapped your body into action and it fully follows through now! All you need to do is go get jiggy with it :P

Nani! I agree bloods don't lie and YAY! Shows how much temps really can be wrong. And your progesterone is awesome! Bring on that nice temp dip in a few days and the wonderful two lines! :)

My temps are nice and steady and have dropped early, may mean i ovulate a day or two earlier but we will see. still at least a week off anyway! But its all good anyway, my new, happy, fun frame of mind has us both overly randy for each other lol! so I think we will be fine in that department! Its like we are two high school kids again. We were doing chores yesterday and seeing him working away in his welding helmet set me off!! lol its like i was on heat! hahahaha funny stuff

Well back to work! hoping for a promotion and pay rise! wouldn't it be nice!