Well looks like AF is finally here. Yay! About time. Will be cd1 tomorrow so I did ovulate late like I thought I did. No idea what on earth happened to my temp though. I did actually get one 36.61 reading on cd20 so looks like it was actually right and i ovulated cd19 because that's bang on normal LP for me. It's good to know even with a late ovulation I still had a normal LP.
So something I haven't mentioned lately is through all this mess of my cycle I actually put on a few kg. Thursday last week I weighed in at 90.1. Omfg I could have died :( its normal for me to put on 3-4kg the days leading up to AF but I wasn't to know it was coming at the time.
Anyway i started a 12week challenge on Saturday. So far I am smashing it. Weighed in at 86.5 today lol like I said it was AF fluid bloat but yay still feels awesome. I am really sore from all the exercise but I am going to do this! One day at a time one foot in front of the other.
Watch this space!
Berry
Tyler
Blake
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Waiting waiting
So its now 6 days late. Did a hpt yesterday and it was negative which I was completely expecting but honestly I have no idea what hell is going on! This is the first time it's ever happened. So weird. Thinking if I did get EWCM around cd20 even though I didn't get a thermal shift if I ovulated then AF is due Friday. Here is to hoping! So annoying. I have started getting twinges high on the left today so hoping that its not ovulation now its cd33. Funny thing is if AF had tuned up on time I would have been in my fertile phase again in 2 days! Maybe my body just skipped AF and will ovulate like normal.
On another front omfg I have no idea what to do with Tyler anymore. I am at my wits end. He has always been a bit of a fussy eater but he does sort eat when he is hungry. For the last month it's progressively gotten worse and worse to the point where he eats one or 2 bites of any meal and then refuses. We have tried so many different approaches but nothing is working. I am really praying its his 2 year molars causing it because this screaming match at every meal time is exhausting. I just want my happy boy back lately all he does is cry and whinge. Bed time is has come down to 4 sippy cups. The first one is 1/2 milk 1/2 water with formula, the next 2 are about 10ml milk and the rest water and the last one is just water. Because he won't eat he is hungry so he just wants a to fill up on liquid. I change his nappy before I go to bed so he now doesn't wet through and I am lucky he doesn't wake when I do.
I really don't know what else to do. He will scream until he spews if I don't give him another one when he asks for more!
I need a holiday!
On another front omfg I have no idea what to do with Tyler anymore. I am at my wits end. He has always been a bit of a fussy eater but he does sort eat when he is hungry. For the last month it's progressively gotten worse and worse to the point where he eats one or 2 bites of any meal and then refuses. We have tried so many different approaches but nothing is working. I am really praying its his 2 year molars causing it because this screaming match at every meal time is exhausting. I just want my happy boy back lately all he does is cry and whinge. Bed time is has come down to 4 sippy cups. The first one is 1/2 milk 1/2 water with formula, the next 2 are about 10ml milk and the rest water and the last one is just water. Because he won't eat he is hungry so he just wants a to fill up on liquid. I change his nappy before I go to bed so he now doesn't wet through and I am lucky he doesn't wake when I do.
I really don't know what else to do. He will scream until he spews if I don't give him another one when he asks for more!
I need a holiday!
Sunday, May 19, 2013
4 days late
I have no idea what the deal is. The only time I have ever been late was when I was pregnant! I know I'm not still no thermal shift to say I even ovulated.
Guess its just after being pregnant and breast feeding twice with only 1 AF in the middle my body must just be trying to resettle. This is my 3rd cycle and the first 2 were fine. Last month AF was 2 days early but only 2. Hopefully I get AF soon as this is just delaying trying for number 3.
I did have a very random dream last night well this morning that I tested with a cheap test I found and it came up positive. This was all happening whilst someone's sperm and fertilised eggs were stored in a car seat and when someone came to get them before they all died and got washed away the flood waters they cleared out my house and found a positive hpt and I was trying to get it off them because I didn't want anyone to know until i did a proper test but my high school teacher found out and yeah the weirdness kept on going!
I usually only get crazy weird dreams when pregnant too.
I guess this is the first time in my life I'm post baby so a new experience body wise.
I will test in a week if AF isn't here but it would be a 1 in zillion chance of pregnancy, immaculate conception kind of thing. I can't even remember DTD let alone DTD unprotected even for a bit before a condom was used. We use the pull out method sometimes but I can't even remember doing that this cycle.
Not much else happening. The boys have the man flu again. Hoping it passes quickly. It's only a cold with a blocked nose but they r both whinging like crazy.
I noticed Tyler has cut one of his 2 year molars yesterday so I am sure that can't be helping his whinginess. Blake may be cutting teeth too need to have a look.
Guess its just after being pregnant and breast feeding twice with only 1 AF in the middle my body must just be trying to resettle. This is my 3rd cycle and the first 2 were fine. Last month AF was 2 days early but only 2. Hopefully I get AF soon as this is just delaying trying for number 3.
I did have a very random dream last night well this morning that I tested with a cheap test I found and it came up positive. This was all happening whilst someone's sperm and fertilised eggs were stored in a car seat and when someone came to get them before they all died and got washed away the flood waters they cleared out my house and found a positive hpt and I was trying to get it off them because I didn't want anyone to know until i did a proper test but my high school teacher found out and yeah the weirdness kept on going!
I usually only get crazy weird dreams when pregnant too.
I guess this is the first time in my life I'm post baby so a new experience body wise.
I will test in a week if AF isn't here but it would be a 1 in zillion chance of pregnancy, immaculate conception kind of thing. I can't even remember DTD let alone DTD unprotected even for a bit before a condom was used. We use the pull out method sometimes but I can't even remember doing that this cycle.
Not much else happening. The boys have the man flu again. Hoping it passes quickly. It's only a cold with a blocked nose but they r both whinging like crazy.
I noticed Tyler has cut one of his 2 year molars yesterday so I am sure that can't be helping his whinginess. Blake may be cutting teeth too need to have a look.
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Bad mother of the year award goes to me :(
So the last couple of days I have been a horrible mum :( Blake is driving me batty and I have no idea what is wrong with him. It could be PMS well hopefully even though that's no excuse but I yelled at him yesterday. He has been refusing to drink his bottles and keeps arching his back screaming. I know its not reflux I thought perhaps teething but now wondering if its his tummy a bit backed up. So I have given him prune juice today so hopefully it helps.
So yeah I yelled at him to shut the f*ck up an to drink his darn bottle. I then placed him in his cot leaving him to cry, I walked into the kitchen banged my head against the sink (lightly but I do wish it was harder) stood there and calmed down for a few minutes and went back in and put him down to bed.
Even through all of Tyler's reflux I never once got angry and frustrated but I find I am with Blake and I feel so horrible and guilty over it. I didn't sleep at all last night because I felt so horrible. :(
I guess I just expected things to turn the corner but it all seems to be going backward. I just need a few hours time out but it's just not going to happen.
When both boys r home they time their naps to not coincide. When Tyler is at daycare I have so much to do I am flat out and pick up time gets here before I even get a chance to tick enough off my to do list.
Just very frustrated at never achieving anything. Agh!
So CD27 today and no AF. Tomorrow is when I would normally expect it. I always thought I had a 28day cycle as AF always appeared on cd28. I now know That actually makes it a 27day cycle. Have a nice pimple on my chin so I am think not too far away.
I got a letter from daycare regarding starting toilet training. Tyler is 20months old now and I honestly hadn't given it much thought. They said they are going to start with a few of them tyler included so I have decided its time to at home now too.
I have a read through all the info and he ticks all the boxes for being ready. We have done the whole Tyler going poo poo and wee wee since just before he turned 1 so he knows what it all is. Going to just drive in head first and see how we go.
I need a brain holiday!
So yeah I yelled at him to shut the f*ck up an to drink his darn bottle. I then placed him in his cot leaving him to cry, I walked into the kitchen banged my head against the sink (lightly but I do wish it was harder) stood there and calmed down for a few minutes and went back in and put him down to bed.
Even through all of Tyler's reflux I never once got angry and frustrated but I find I am with Blake and I feel so horrible and guilty over it. I didn't sleep at all last night because I felt so horrible. :(
I guess I just expected things to turn the corner but it all seems to be going backward. I just need a few hours time out but it's just not going to happen.
When both boys r home they time their naps to not coincide. When Tyler is at daycare I have so much to do I am flat out and pick up time gets here before I even get a chance to tick enough off my to do list.
Just very frustrated at never achieving anything. Agh!
So CD27 today and no AF. Tomorrow is when I would normally expect it. I always thought I had a 28day cycle as AF always appeared on cd28. I now know That actually makes it a 27day cycle. Have a nice pimple on my chin so I am think not too far away.
I got a letter from daycare regarding starting toilet training. Tyler is 20months old now and I honestly hadn't given it much thought. They said they are going to start with a few of them tyler included so I have decided its time to at home now too.
I have a read through all the info and he ticks all the boxes for being ready. We have done the whole Tyler going poo poo and wee wee since just before he turned 1 so he knows what it all is. Going to just drive in head first and see how we go.
I need a brain holiday!
Friday, May 10, 2013
Headaches
It has to be the headaches making me so ill. I always feel hungover which sucks cause I haven't had a drink! No idea what is causing them :( I'm still not sleeping which is so crap. I wake around 3-4am every morning and that's the end of my sleep for the night. I have only ever suffered insomnia when pregnant so not sure what's causing it this time. I don't feel stressed I don't really have anything on my mind.
Temp was a very low reading this morning. Pre babies pre ovulation was always around 36.22-36.41 and post ovulation. 36.61+
This mornings reading was 36.11. Maybe it's the not sleeping giving me the doggy readings. I'm cd22 and was hoping the 36.61 two days ago was a sign I may have ovulated but apparently not! EWCM for 4 days straight. Seems to have dried up today (still early though) but still have the painful cramps. It's all one big f'ing mess.
I don't need to really worry about it because we aren't trying for a bit but a friend told me about her 2nd miscarriage in a row this morning. Just heartbreaking and down right scary. I don't want another miscarriage and I want my baby to be healthy the older I get the more it freaks me out. I know we aren't ready to start ttc now but I just want to be able to rattle it off and get it off my chest but its not something I can talk to B about because he just thinks I'm over reacting etc. he takes everything I say as literal like I would be wanting to start ttc immediately but I don't I just want to tell him about my f'ed up cycle etc. I just really hope its not PCOS or something. I don't think it's in my family so I doubt it but that would really suck.
To add insult to injury in the past 2 weeks I have somehow put on 3kg! Wtf! I am eating the same working out around the same. Even if I haven't lost any I certainly didn't expect to pack it on. Seems to be bloat and I know i always put on 3-4kg leading into AF and OV so maybe its just this mess and once AF shows the fluid and bloat will drop.
My sisters wedding is less than 12weeks away and I am so now where near my target.
Temp was a very low reading this morning. Pre babies pre ovulation was always around 36.22-36.41 and post ovulation. 36.61+
This mornings reading was 36.11. Maybe it's the not sleeping giving me the doggy readings. I'm cd22 and was hoping the 36.61 two days ago was a sign I may have ovulated but apparently not! EWCM for 4 days straight. Seems to have dried up today (still early though) but still have the painful cramps. It's all one big f'ing mess.
I don't need to really worry about it because we aren't trying for a bit but a friend told me about her 2nd miscarriage in a row this morning. Just heartbreaking and down right scary. I don't want another miscarriage and I want my baby to be healthy the older I get the more it freaks me out. I know we aren't ready to start ttc now but I just want to be able to rattle it off and get it off my chest but its not something I can talk to B about because he just thinks I'm over reacting etc. he takes everything I say as literal like I would be wanting to start ttc immediately but I don't I just want to tell him about my f'ed up cycle etc. I just really hope its not PCOS or something. I don't think it's in my family so I doubt it but that would really suck.
To add insult to injury in the past 2 weeks I have somehow put on 3kg! Wtf! I am eating the same working out around the same. Even if I haven't lost any I certainly didn't expect to pack it on. Seems to be bloat and I know i always put on 3-4kg leading into AF and OV so maybe its just this mess and once AF shows the fluid and bloat will drop.
My sisters wedding is less than 12weeks away and I am so now where near my target.
Thursday, May 9, 2013
Wtf is going on?
Cd21 and no OV but for the past 4 days I have had EWCM and this is way TmI but its disgusting. So much and like snot. Basically it's like the mucus plug u lose when u give birth. I had a nice high thermal shift temp yesterday morning but today it's back down. Maybe my thermometer is broken? New battery perhaps?
Its so frustrating. At least the really painful cramps seem to have eased off a little today. Honestly if I wasn't temping I would be wondering if I was pregnant. For the last 3-4 days I have been starving hungry and if I don't eat I get nauseous to the point where I was dry reaching yesterday. I feel like I am burning up all the time which is strange for my low BBT readings.
Who knows. AF will be here sometime next week though. Due Thursday by normal time but could be Monday or Tuesday based off last month or going by the maybe really late OV maybe not for another 14days.
Nothing else really happening. Life just carries on and goes way too quickly. I can't believe Blake will have his 1/2 birthday in 3 weeks! Scary.
I have been finding myself with drawing into my shell a bit again and I honestly don't know why. I've been having extremely bad headaches again and I do find it really hard to focus on anything or anyone when they get this bad. I get clumsy and all foggy minding. Someone has a conversation with me and I miss 3/4 of it :( I feel so bad but I can't stay focused. I'm not thinking about anything I just seem to get this fog feeling pass through my brain and that's all I can see for a while.
I don't know what is causing them. I know I'm not sleeping very well at all. I toss and turn almost all night. I simply can't get comfortable. My neck is really sore and stif so maybe its just that. They stop me having any patience what so ever though and that's very hard when u have 2 small kids. Maybe if I can find the time a trip to the chiropractor is in order again
Its so frustrating. At least the really painful cramps seem to have eased off a little today. Honestly if I wasn't temping I would be wondering if I was pregnant. For the last 3-4 days I have been starving hungry and if I don't eat I get nauseous to the point where I was dry reaching yesterday. I feel like I am burning up all the time which is strange for my low BBT readings.
Who knows. AF will be here sometime next week though. Due Thursday by normal time but could be Monday or Tuesday based off last month or going by the maybe really late OV maybe not for another 14days.
Nothing else really happening. Life just carries on and goes way too quickly. I can't believe Blake will have his 1/2 birthday in 3 weeks! Scary.
I have been finding myself with drawing into my shell a bit again and I honestly don't know why. I've been having extremely bad headaches again and I do find it really hard to focus on anything or anyone when they get this bad. I get clumsy and all foggy minding. Someone has a conversation with me and I miss 3/4 of it :( I feel so bad but I can't stay focused. I'm not thinking about anything I just seem to get this fog feeling pass through my brain and that's all I can see for a while.
I don't know what is causing them. I know I'm not sleeping very well at all. I toss and turn almost all night. I simply can't get comfortable. My neck is really sore and stif so maybe its just that. They stop me having any patience what so ever though and that's very hard when u have 2 small kids. Maybe if I can find the time a trip to the chiropractor is in order again
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Cycle mess!
So confused!
My cycle is an absolute mess and I have no idea what is going on!
My AF lasted 7days which is 2 more than normal and then I started temping. All was fine I thought I had ovulation pains 2 days ago but no thermal shift in my morning temp. My evening temp has shifted to post ovulation temps that I'm used to seeing. But yesterday and this morning I had more really sharp ovulation like pains but also bad period like cramps and bad back pain. I really felt like AF was coming. Then just before I had blood streaked cm! Wtf??????
My cycle is an absolute mess and I have no idea what is going on!
My AF lasted 7days which is 2 more than normal and then I started temping. All was fine I thought I had ovulation pains 2 days ago but no thermal shift in my morning temp. My evening temp has shifted to post ovulation temps that I'm used to seeing. But yesterday and this morning I had more really sharp ovulation like pains but also bad period like cramps and bad back pain. I really felt like AF was coming. Then just before I had blood streaked cm! Wtf??????
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