Headaches

It has to be the headaches making me so ill. I always feel hungover which sucks cause I haven't had a drink! No idea what is causing them :( I'm still not sleeping which is so crap. I wake around 3-4am every morning and that's the end of my sleep for the night. I have only ever suffered insomnia when pregnant so not sure what's causing it this time. I don't feel stressed I don't really have anything on my mind.

Temp was a very low reading this morning. Pre babies pre ovulation was always around 36.22-36.41 and post ovulation. 36.61+
This mornings reading was 36.11. Maybe it's the not sleeping giving me the doggy readings. I'm cd22 and was hoping the 36.61 two days ago was a sign I may have ovulated but apparently not! EWCM for 4 days straight. Seems to have dried up today (still early though) but still have the painful cramps. It's all one big f'ing mess.

I don't need to really worry about it because we aren't trying for a bit but a friend told me about her 2nd miscarriage in a row this morning. Just heartbreaking and down right scary. I don't want another miscarriage and I want my baby to be healthy the older I get the more it freaks me out. I know we aren't ready to start ttc now but I just want to be able to rattle it off and get it off my chest but its not something I can talk to B about because he just thinks I'm over reacting etc. he takes everything I say as literal like I would be wanting to start ttc immediately but I don't I just want to tell him about my f'ed up cycle etc. I just really hope its not PCOS or something. I don't think it's in my family so I doubt it but that would really suck.

To add insult to injury in the past 2 weeks I have somehow put on 3kg! Wtf! I am eating the same working out around the same. Even if I haven't lost any I certainly didn't expect to pack it on. Seems to be bloat and I know i always put on 3-4kg leading into AF and OV so maybe its just this mess and once AF shows the fluid and bloat will drop.
My sisters wedding is less than 12weeks away and I am so now where near my target.