Bubba bean is perfect

Bubba bean is doing great! Was so wonderful to see it again!

Heart beat was wonderful, size was perfect. They put my due date forward to the 5th so I am just going to go by my LMP due date of the 7th.

I was given the exact results but only remember the downs was about 1:12500 so that's nice and low.

So it's official I am having baby 2 in December. OMG!

12+1

Yay we made it past the 12week mark!!!! It was over shadowed by my extreme exhaustion yesterday and today isn't much better. Little Nate had a very bad night Monday night, I woke at 2:30 to go to the bathroom, I couldn't get back to sleep and Nate started crying around 3:30, he finally fell asleep at some point but then the cats started being noisy! Grrr! I tried to nap but it didn't happen and last night I just couldn't get to sleep. I tossed and turned for hours :(

Waiting for the plumber but after that I will try a nap when Tyler goes down.

Also want to check bubba bean. Checked it last at 11+5 but I feel like everything is fine :)

A couple of days till my scan :) yay

Mum

The little man has really figured out mum! Last night he was hungry and tired and I was rushing around getting his bath ready and his bottle. He was crawling after me saying 'muuumm, muuumm' lol was very cute. Then this morning i was woken up with 'muuumm' lol. He only says it when he wants me so he clearly knows it means me! Hehe

11+6 today!

Yay its Friday again!

The end of another week :) 11+3 today although by LMP dates I should be 12w! Off the get my bloods done today for my NT scan next friday!

I checked bubba beans heart beat last night and it was nice and strong but it was like I was picking up 2 heart beats. It was very weird! I have wondered from very early on if I have an anterior placenta so maybe that had something to do with it? The heart beat sounded normal pace but because it was two exact same beats close together fast it sounded super super fast. I hope everything is ok and nothing is wrong with bubba beans heart or something. Haven't heard it before though.

Well everyone in the house has come down with a cold! I really don't like getting sick it's such and inconvenience. Can't actually take anything for it. Might have a look to see how much vitC i am taking and see if I can up that.

Little man is doing well as always! Not sure if I mentioned that he is clapping and waving now. So cute. Still only the one tooth. Oh I changed his formula last week and he had been so much better. He isn't getting backed up at all, he is back to eating his solids.

On the B and I front well B seems to be making a turn for the better? I don't want to get my hopes up but just maybe. We have been talking a bit and he is thinking about letting his business go and looking for a fly in fly out job. He has always been a perfectionist and has trouble leaving work at work and even in a 9-5 job he would always be thinking about work at home so I suggest the FIFO work so he can have his time at work and focus on work and then his time at home to focus on home. He has the travel time to wind down from work and then he can start thinking about work on the way back. It will also keep him off the drugs as they regularly check.

We will see though all just thoughts at the moment. I know I will have no problem looking after the kids on my own as I do it now. It will just be good to see him with some direction in life and get out of this bad rut he is in.

Piccies to finish!
Hands and feet casts for u cookie :)

11weeks

Finally 11weeks! 1 week to go!

I feel like the walking dead today! The little man decided last night was not for sleep. He woke up at midnight crying and I didn't get him back to sleep until 3am! I thought this would give me a sleep in but nope :(

No idea what it was, he wasn't hot or cold, gave him a bottle and changed his nappy nope didn't work. Gave him panadol around 2 and then when he was still crying I tried another bottle around 3 and He drank 3/4 of it and was finally out.

Thinking maybe teeth? I haven't felt to see if he has any more but I will a bit later.

Mum

I got my first actual directed 'mum' today.  Tyler goes around the house going dadadadada but has never associated the word with dad. I was sitting watching sunrise this morning and Tyler was over near his jumper and did a very big dramatic poop.  It was very upsetting for him, so he turned around and crawled over to me, put his hands out for me to pick him up and he said 'mum'. It was so cute but OMG so funny too.  It was like 'mum i have done a big poo, help!' haha. I still loved it though.

In the last week he has also learnt how to clap and wave. cheecky little bugger :)

I went and did some reasearch on prams today. I have found the one I really like. Its the steel craft strider plus. It works really well for toddler and baby but is also good for just one bub so when Tyler no longer wants to get into the pram we only need to have 1 attachment. It was nice and light and moveable.  I wont worry about the car capsual, Tyler grew out of his way too quick so I am just going to get a new car seat for Tyler that goes from 6 months to 8 years old. That way I don't need to buy a new one until bub grows out of Tyler's current one which will be around 4 years.  It also comes with a basinet attachment but I think they two main attachments lye flat enough I don't need to worry about that.

agh time seems to be standing still. 1 more day till 11weeks.

Friday

Yay it's Friday! Not that it means much in this camp except it's another week gone and getting close to ticking over another week.

Lmp dates 11weeks today scan date 10w3d so we are getting there ever so slowly! Lol. I had been doing so well with ms just the hung over feeling but yesterday I actually vomited! And today I feel very yuk in the tummy!

I do have energy though it's only 7:30 and I have already done so much. Normally when Tyler wakes up at 5 I am too tired to do anything and I sit on the couch while he watches his nursery rhymes. Today I cooked breakfast for us both, boiled some eggs, did some washing, cleaned the kitchen and dining room! I feel so accomplished!

Have morning tea with my grandma, mum, sister her fiancé and the too bubs of course :) then tonight I am having my dad and his mum over for dinner as well as my sister, her fiancé and of course Nate :) very busy day.

So I pic of little Nate at now 7 weeks and of course the little man :)

First mummy's day!

Yesterday was my first mummy's day and I had a wonderful day. I went to lunch with my mum, she has been my rock of late and I don't know how i would get through everything without her.

B left me a pot of Tulips and a really nice card at my front door when I got home. I was so shocked! He has never gotten me a present or card without a fight first!

I know yesterday is a day for thanking mums but I have to say it gave me time to reflect and realise how lucky I am. Being a mum is the most wonderful thing in the world. My little man is gorgeous in every way and he is a healthy happy little boy. Being a mum is hard for sure but i love it.

In just over 6 months we will have another little one joining us. I know still 2 weeks till we are safe but I feel this little one is going to stick around!

Belly went pop!

Not even officially 10weeks and I have popped! At lease I can still hide it easily with clothes!

8 months old!

The cheeky little monkey is 8 months old today! It's going so fast! Not much has changed in terms of his milestones or development since I updated last. Walking still seems a while off which is good. He loves crawling and standing.

Accepted

Wow just got the phone call to say Tyler has been accepted by the modeling agency. Apparently he scored very well in both looks and personality. He loves people and is always smiling so it's not a surprise. Even though he only had a 40 min nap all day yesterday and his interview was at 2pm and he was exhausted he was still in a good mood. He is a really good little boy.

So his photo shoot is tomorrow morning. I am excited but nervous. U always get worried he will be in a shocker mood. But he hasn't ha a really bad day in ages. He grizzled with his teeth but that's about it. he does had a teething rash on his cheeks at the moment but the lady said that's no problem.

I am not actually expecting anything to come of it. It's not the modeling agency's decision on who gets work but the clients. Some mums get really cut because their baby's get no work. Really? Why? Just stupid!

On another note I am getting my hair chopped of tomorrow! This I am really excited and nervous about. I figure it's time to get a style for someone my age. I am 30 in a few months and long hair just doesn't cut it for me. Wish me luck!

Finally 9 weeks and toothy pegs

Finally we reach 9 weeks! Being pushed back those few days has made it feel like it's really dragging. Reaching those double digits should speed things up a bit. My sister and her little man arrive on monday so that should make those last 2 weeks go much faster.

The big news of the week though is the little man finally has a tooth. It popped up on Sunday morning. I think a few more will pop though in the next few days as he is still in a lot of pain.

Tyler has an interview today with a baby modeling agency. Everyone has been telling me to do it for ages but I haven't given it any thought until yesterday. As B has gone off the rails more than ever I don't see a reconciliation as ever being possible and being a single mum of 2 the thing that will be affected the most is there education and the option of going to a decent school. So if he does get anything any money that comes in will go straight into a bank account in his name to help pay for a good school when he is older. Of course I am going to work my butt off to hopefully get them a good education but if this can help I am going to give it a try.

Off to see a psychologist this morning. Clearly things with B have hit an all time low and I need to get my head back together. To stop being angry at him for letting the family down.

But anyway no need to go on about that! Its why i am going to pay someone a lot of money to listen.

Change in Due Date

So the scan went really well this morning.  Bubba bean was wiggling all about! yay good little bubba bean. So the due date has changed.  It measured 8w4d today so Dr A said we will go off the original scan a couple of weeks ago and the due date is now 11/12/12.

Heart beat was a nice and strong 181bpm. :) I have booked in for my NT scan on the 1/6 I will be 12w3d :) not long to go at all.

Nearly 9 weeks!

9 weeks on Friday and my next scan! Excited but nervous. If the baby is all good the chance of something going wrong from there is so much smaller. Only 3 week until the 12 week mark! It's actually gone very quick. It feels slow in the present but when I think back to getting that first positive pregnancy test time has flown.

Still have the really bad hang over feeling. I can't remember what it felt like to feel normal. I keep saying to myself 'omg why on earth do I feel like complete sh*t? Oh yeah that's right I am pregnant!' I think the thing that makes it so much worse is my oh so super sensitive smell. That's what takes me over the edge from hungover feeling to full spewing. Everything stinks. It's not even some of those strong smells are nice it's everything just smells horrible! Yuk!

I started lite and easy on Monday. It's been good so far. It's not for weight loss they have 3 levels of calorie food menus. It's for convenience and nutrition. Its hard to cook for just one so I was eating toast or crumpets or other crap because it was quick and easy! At least this way I get all my nutrition and I don't waste any food and hopefully not gain too much.

Tyler had been doing well. I really wish his teeth would cut through. He was completely off his bottles today so surely they are close! He hates pureed food. He likes normal food. I cook him his own food but nope mummy I want ur food! I am managing to cook him stuff he is liking though. It's trial and error but we are getting there. But it should better when he actually gets teeth and I can worry less about him choking.

As I mentioned in the last post Tyler spends most of his time standing and cruising the furniture but now his crawl has changed. It's a half crawl half walk. His back legs are straight. Lol. He still crawls normally when he wants the speed lol like when chasing the cat but he is definitely trying to figure out how to stand up with out the furniture. My god he is isn't even 8 months!

I am feeling really guilty at the moment because of the ms. It goes in waves 2 days on 2 days off. The 2 bad days Tyler and I don't really do anything at all. I lye on the floor And play with him and just count down to each nap knowing I can nap too. Although today was a better day but I still really struggled. The house looks like a bomb hit it. I do about 10 mins of house work and then just want fall asleep on the floor where I stand. Hopefully another 5 weeks and I should start to feel better.

Ahh almost bed time for another day. I love that feeling when my head hits the pillow. Pure bliss! Although as Tyler was off his bottles today it might be a long night.