Bad mother of the year award goes to me :(

So the last couple of days I have been a horrible mum :( Blake is driving me batty and I have no idea what is wrong with him. It could be PMS well hopefully even though that's no excuse but I yelled at him yesterday. He has been refusing to drink his bottles and keeps arching his back screaming. I know its not reflux I thought perhaps teething but now wondering if its his tummy a bit backed up. So I have given him prune juice today so hopefully it helps.
So yeah I yelled at him to shut the f*ck up an to drink his darn bottle. I then placed him in his cot leaving him to cry, I walked into the kitchen banged my head against the sink (lightly but I do wish it was harder) stood there and calmed down for a few minutes and went back in and put him down to bed.

Even through all of Tyler's reflux I never once got angry and frustrated but I find I am with Blake and I feel so horrible and guilty over it. I didn't sleep at all last night because I felt so horrible. :(

I guess I just expected things to turn the corner but it all seems to be going backward. I just need a few hours time out but it's just not going to happen.
When both boys r home they time their naps to not coincide. When Tyler is at daycare I have so much to do I am flat out and pick up time gets here before I even get a chance to tick enough off my to do list.
Just very frustrated at never achieving anything. Agh!

So CD27 today and no AF. Tomorrow is when I would normally expect it. I always thought I had a 28day cycle as AF always appeared on cd28. I now know That actually makes it a 27day cycle. Have a nice pimple on my chin so I am think not too far away.

I got a letter from daycare regarding starting toilet training. Tyler is 20months old now and I honestly hadn't given it much thought. They said they are going to start with a few of them tyler included so I have decided its time to at home now too.
I have a read through all the info and he ticks all the boxes for being ready. We have done the whole Tyler going poo poo and wee wee since just before he turned 1 so he knows what it all is. Going to just drive in head first and see how we go.

I need a brain holiday!