6weeks

So I have made it to the half way point of the 1st trimester.  Only 6 more weeks until safety.  But that is so far away.

Making me even more nervous is the reminder of how fast this can be taken away.  A girl I used to know has had a horrible journey to finally fall pregnant with IVF.  7w3d down the track she might be loosing her precious little bubble.  My heart is truly breaking for her.  She doesn't deserve this.  I really hope a miracle happens for her, if there was a need for one its now!

It reminds me how one day you think everything is fine and the next it all comes crashing down.

I am really sick this time and everyone keeps saying thats usually a good sign that bubba is growing strong.  But I am still so scared and nervous.  I keep wondering if I am imagining all these things.  My bbs aren't sore today only a little tender.  The nipples are still painful but that drop in symptom gets me so worried.  In true form I am already throwing up this morning so thats reassuring but I wonder can it be in my head?  Normally I never throw up. Now I can't stop it.  Surely that means its real??

Having a baby isn't supposed to be so hard and stressful.

Please little peanut stay strong and healthy. 1week and 1 day till I get to see you.  I am really hoping to see a nice strong heart beat and good measurements.  I don't know what I would do if it wasn't.  I need to keep positive. I do still feel like everything is going well.  I really do hope I am right!