Lost for words

I really don't know what to say today! I am so angry, a friend of mine found out yesterday her baby didn't make it. It is one of the HARDEST things to ever go through. Off to a scan all nervous, worried something could be wrong but excited to see bub, then the technician telling you your baby has died. Its like those words just echo in your head as its starts spinning, and your whole world just crashes down around you. The next few days/weeks are a complete blur as you try to pull yourself together.

I know nothing I can say or do will make it any better for her, I will just be there for her when ever she needs me, but I just wish so much that I could take this pain away for her.

I just don't get it. She is young, healthy, she TTC for 12months before she got this one, genetically her eggs should have been great. Her DH has super sperm so they should have been fine too. WHY! I know I went through all these questions too, but for me I had only been off the pill 3 months and we are older so egg viability could be a problem. But not for her!

COME ON! this world is really starting to give me the complete irrats! Women who actually want babies are REALLY REALLY struggling yet there are so many women everyday walking into abortion clinics! if stats have anything to go by if they just wait they might loose it anyway! Knowing there luck though because they don't want it they will get to keep it!

I am just so angry about it all! I hate that the innocence and joy of pregnancy has been yet again stripped from another beautiful woman!

I know her pain and because of this I am so gutted, I can't stop crying. My thoughts will be with her all day as she goes through the final physical step and then for the next few months as she battles the emotional heartache.

quick update from me CD20 and still no ovulation! PLEASE let AF arrive next Friday PLEASE! Going by the luck of things, it wont arrive and there goes June! :(