11w6d. Tomorrow is the big 12weeks! OMG could this actually be happening. It still feels so surreal. Even now after TTC for so long, 16months in the end I still get jealous when I see pregnancy announcement even though it will be me soon. I am waiting till after my scan on Wednesday but I am excited. Tested peanuts heart beat this morning still 165 so surely nothing can happen in the last day?
I have been thinking long and hard about the FB announcement. I know how much it hurts for people who have been TTC for a long time. I was thinking something along the lines of
"After a very long journey we are happy to announce that the stalk has finally decided to deliver our first little Cherub. ETA 11th Sept. Yep sorry Johnson's yet another birthday in September!!! We are so excited!"
That way people can see we weren't one of the lucky ones who just fell pregnant and if they too are struggling they might contact me and find support and hopefully inspiration that it too will happen for them one day.
I have no problem discussing our fertility issues if someone asks. I know it can be very taboo to talk about but I know it happens to so many women and I really don't think people should feel they have to be ashamed of it and keep it secret. If any one judges you for having problems or doesn't support you then they aren't truly friends.
Tomorrow I enter the 2nd trimester. I seriously never ever thought this day would come. I honestly can't believe it. I haven't been anywhere near the nursery in so long I went in there this morning and went wow this is now real!
The ms is still there a bit, don't throw up as much as what I was but I still just feel really sick and hung over all day. oh and the tiredness. thats hard work. I can't remember what if felt like to have energy!
So as of this afternoon I am finally going to start walking again. I have put on weight, I honestly don't care, the only the that made me not as sick was heavy carb meals so thats what I ate. But I want to stay healthy for this bub. Pre-eclampsia is in my family so now that the ms should start subsiding I want to make sure I eat really well and get in some light exercise every day. Bub deserves the best start to life I can give it so thats what I am going to do!
I want to also start pilates so that I can bounce back after the birth well. We can't afford for me to go to classes so I am just going to get a DVD and try to do it regularly.
I am actually excited now that I just might be having a baby. From tomorrow I can say I am having a baby! WOW
Well ipod is charged watch out house here I come!!!
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