So I woke up this morning feeling very emotional! I have this very overwhelming feeling today about how much I want a baby. Its completely consuming me. I keep thinking about how I should of had a baby a few weeks ago, that I should be holding her right now, that I should be pregnant by now, and that I really really need to be pregnant this month. I want it so bad! I don't know if its just hormone related, or if its that the next 5 days are critical and if bubby is there and going to implant it will be in these next 5 days. If it doesn't implant than what do I do then?? I have gone from being able to fall pg at the drop of a hat to not being able to even with help from fertility drugs. :( I have been perfectly fine about all of this for weeks and weeks, but today I woke up and bang. All the emotion just made me feel like I wanted to curl up in a ball, cry and go back to sleep.
I guess it doesn't help that I am still temping this cycle and my temp isn't as high as last month making me think I released 2 eggs. and If last month I couldn't get 1 of those fertilised and implanted what makes me think I will catch the 1 this month! :(
Its still early and I don't have any symptoms either way. Crampy uterus is about it but I had that last month.
I know I am going to be fine and that tomorrow I will probably wake up feeling good, today is just one of those days! I want a baby and I have absolutely no control over when I get one! :(
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