So I was very heavily pregnant and bubby had dropped ready for the birth. I hadn't felt the waters broken or anything but I was in labour and running around the hospital looking for someone to help me. I was going to every room and looking in and in each room there were other women giving birth, so i just kept going. All the nurses and doctors would just look at me and tell me I was fine. Then this lady appeared out of no where and she checked my cervix and it was fully dilated, and I was about to give birth. She checked the babies heart beat and it was starting to labour so she was like you have to deliver this baby NOW! then she disappeared again. So I started running and getting really panicked that I couldn't find anyone. I eventually found a spare bed in a dark room and just ended up delivering her on her own.
After that we were at home with bubs and Hubby and I were deciding if we should start TTC again STRAIGHT away or give it a few months because you wouldn't want your kids to be in the same year if one is at the start of the year the other at the end. anyway then my alarm went off to temp and after that I couldn't get back to sleep because I kept thinking about how long to wait before TTC again. But I realised that if we conceive in June bubby is due in March so TTC again straight away wont matter because they would be born in different years anyway. They also say breast feeding is a natural contraception anyway and I plan on breast feeding so it may have something to do with things anyway.
So its down to 6w1d until TTC again and we are back in that tough part of the month. AF is nearly over and ovulation follows and my hormones go into baby making over drive. and its so frustrating that we have to wait. I do want to wait because I know June bubby will be strong and sticky,but that doesn't make the wait any easier. I just can't wait to be pregnant again. To have the sore boobs, the m/s, the tiredness. All of those things that will tell me bubba is going strong.
Sorry have to add this but OMG I hate my job! I really really do. But I am stuck here and that is a horrible feeling! Most days I can just let the S**T wash over me. Today when I am tired and AFy I am JUST OVER IT! I want to go home and back to bed and forget about all the politics and Bull!
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