Background

OK, so I will start to tell the very LONG story, may have to cut it into pieces but it needs to be said other wise my diary makes no sense!

Back in October last year, hubby and I weren't trying for a baby but were weren't not trying either. Just no protection. I had been off the pill for around 3 months and we were just taking it as it comes.

Well about the 8th I got the feeling I was pg. I went to the Dr, not to confirm that I was but for a general check up. She did all the normal, and we found out I wasn't immune to Chicken pox. The Dr had done a blood test, it had come back negative so she gave me the vaccine. All good. Or so I thought, a week later feeling even more pregnant I did another hpt, yep positive.

So then came the worry! the chicken pox vaccine can cause birth defects. But nothing I could do about it so we continued on. I had no idea when my last LMP was so the Dr sent me for an early u/s. That was on the 12th of November and it was one of the hardest days of my life! I was supposed to be 7w3d I measured 6w3d with no heart beat. Baby had died inutero! I was guttered and so was hubby! We were heading away that weekend for my 27th birthday, as expected I don't really remember anything at all.

the following week, nothing had happened so I went to see an OBGYN, she did a confirmation scan, to ensure the pregnancy wasn't viable, and then I was booked in for a D&C on the 19th.

I had the D&C, everything went well, wasn't a very nice thing to go through as I was so scared of being out cold and someone down there. But I had no choice and I came out the other side fine.

40days went by and I got my first AF! We were going to wait another cycle but we thought if it happens it happens so we just weren't careful! I was excited and hopeful. I had been charting and FF pin pointed CD14 for ovulation. GREAT! then it changed it to CD18, uh OH that makes for a short LP! then AF arrived early on CD26. GREAT! All was good we could try again the next cycle.

lol but in true form for me......I started having some spotting after AF! NOT GREAT! I was so annoyed, all I could think of was! my cycle is stuffed I have even longer to wait! After thinking about it for a while, I decided to do a hpt! lol it was positive! OH GREAT!!!! I am A- and hubby is B+ so I needed to get an antiD injection. So I went to the Dr, he wasn't sure about it all because I had AF, he just didn't think I was pg! So off to the hospital! They didn't believe me either so they sent some bloods off! 5 hours later they confirmed the pregnancy and gave me the AntiD.

So anyway they started monitoring the hcg every 2 days and it continued to go up. Sadly a week later the HEAVY miscarriage bleeding start! We thought it was over....of course not!

So we noticed the hcg dropped, all good. I decided to monitor thing with hpt at home and a few days later I noticed it got A LOT darker! So back to the Dr, and the tests showed the levels had gone back up.

Problem was hubby and I hadn't been careful, so it could have been a new pregnancy or something more sinister like an ectopic. So I went for u/s after u/s, blood test after blood test! Eventually the Dr became concerned. nothing in the uterus hcg still rising. So he did laparoscopic surgery to ensure there was no sign of ectopic.

All good. Massive relief! So we monitored it again for 2 weeks when the blood tests showed it wasn't viable. The hcg just wasn't doubling.

So we opted for the methetrexate as a D&C couldn't guarantee to end it and I just wanted it over!

So the day before the injection I went for a run! I needed to clear my head and after 2 months of spotting and being scared I was pg and anything would trigger a m/c, I had had enough. So I went for a really long intense run. It felt so good. That night at about 8pm the bleeding started. It was SO heavy and didn't stop. The clots were massive! I spent about 5 hours on the toilet because the bleeding was just too heavy. At about 1am I lost the last clot and fell into bed.

I had to be up at 4am so that I could get to work early so I could leave early to head to the OB for the injection. Needless to say I was exhausted.

Hubby and I had been fighting so much from the stress of it all and things were just getting worse.

So I had the injection and the levels have been continually monitored. and they have been dropping well. That takes us up to today!