So Dr rang, hcg still not negative. so Angry! would use more colourful words but I better not.
So they are at 63, so who knows how long it will take to drop that! That means I haven't ovulated yet. they have to reach 0 first!
I am so over this crap! So now I feel like I am all the way back at the start. Angry, frustrated and depressed! Spoke to the Dr about this misfiring of ovulation and he wants me to monitor for 3 cycles, and "See how we go" so if it keeps happening, there goes June, perhaps July! At this rate I will be lucky to be pregnant by my 28th Birthday! Its just bullshit! Why does it keep happening to me. What the hell did I do so wrong!
So don't want to be at work now! Honestly don't see the point! Just too angry at everything!
Berry
Tyler
Blake
1 comments:
*hugs*
Not sure that ovulation can't happen with HCG given that it used to trigger ovulation as part of IVF procedures. Having said that, HCG would account for your positive OPKs. Given that your temps have ranged from 36.2 to 36.8, it looks like it just a continuation of what has been happening. :-(
There really is no verbal consolation for how you are feeling right now but at least the HCG numbers are on the way down...even if it is taking its sweet time going to non-significant levels.
Your time will come.... of this I am sure. You can make a baby, it is just a matter of making sure the conditions are right so your little one stays stuck.
Keep your chin up and take it one step at a time. You are entitled to feel angry. I would too.. amongst everything else. But I also think that you are very strong. It takes a lot of courage to soldier on in times like these. While your heart is burning just remember that when the fire is out, new life thrives from underneath the ashes. *hugs*
Post a Comment