He left at this point and rang me 10mins later to explain that there is no money in the account! Ummm excuse me WTF????
I asked how on earth did he expect me to pay the bills? His response was "I honestly don't care!"
Omg i lost it. I normally keep my sh*t together but after this i couldn't I let him have it.
After my blow up i was of down the coast to catch up with some mums. Whilst I was there I got a msg from him commenting on the weather. Ummm what?
I ignored that! I finished up with the mums and had to stop and grab food on my way home. I didn't get too much as it was only some basics I needed but as I hadn't had breakfast or lunch I grabbed a BBQ chicken. Now as DH hasn't given me any money for around 2 months I am living off my credit card and again bought these groceries using that. Get home fed Tyler and put him down for a nap and had a bite to eat. DH wanders in (he had been watching TV - yep hard life when u don't work) and asks if he can have some and starts talking like nothing was the matter!!
Again WTF?? Did I imagine the events of the morning??? I again let him have it because I seriously can't keep putting up with these games!
So I have moved
my lease start date forward to Tuesday and I can't wait! To be free of this daily emotional abuse! I don't mind having to be the provider for my family as well as mum, house keeper etc but there is no way i am supporting another adult anymore simply because he doesn't feel up to going to work?
Anyway I am sure this crap will go on for a while. I honestly don't think he realised it's happening. He probably thinks we will have a break and in 6 months we will be back together. But i won't go back now! I can't! There is only so many times u can be emotionally beaten before u finally learn the lesson!
I had a really horrible day emotionally the other day! I am excited by the though that maybe one day I might meet someone that will love me and treat me with the respect I deserve and love my little man like his own but it hit home how different things r for me!
I am still 20kg over weight, my boobs are saggy and non existent since stopping breast feeding, my stomach is floppy with stretch marks and my VJ well let's not even go there! Normally when in ur family these little imperfections are looked passed because u love each other, u have created a beautiful life together, but to start fresh with a new man. Very scary thought and it really did upset me. Mostly over it now but i can imagine I will revisit those feelings!
The little man is going great. Been off his reflux meds now for nearly a week. It's definitely still there and it was bothering him a fair bit today so I am trying an anti reflux formula to see if we can help it with out the meds.
He like sitting up, he will sit on his own with out falling over for well over 30mins now. He is back to not really liking his back or tummy but i think that's re reflux.
He is still sleeping great. Sleeps through the night every night. He normally has 2x2-3hour + 1x1hour nap every day. He was a bit off this today he only slept for an hour at a time 4 naps in total but I think it's again the reflux bothering him.
His half birthday is coming up. I can't believe he is nearly 6 months old!! Time seriously does fly!
Some more pics :) love my pics! Hehe
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