Stress

It is amazing how different people deal with stress.  I have had to deal with lots over the years and have learnt how to cope very well with it. I used to be a bigger worrier but one day I decided it wasn't worth worrying about so many different things and to move on and since then my stress has been something completely different.

My DH on the other hand doesn't cope with stress at all! I think he is suffering from post natal depression and because of his break down last night I didn't get to bed until about 9:30, I was up with Tyler at 10:30 till 11:15, up again at 1:30 and haven't been back to sleep since! Very tired!

The issues we are currently facing that with DH starting his own business, me not working, the big mortgage over this place and the arrangement with my parents and their separation, the auction, moving, 9 week old baby, has caused all the stress to max out.  I have been sitting here with Tyler since 4am writing everything out. all the pros and cons if we decided to go back to renting, if I returned to work, if I started my own business and honestly I am no further ahead than before I started! I honestly don't know how to help DH with this one.  He wants to go back to renting but I am concerned this will mean we wont ever re-enter the buying market. Also that it will create a liquid lifestyle with less commitment and responsibility and he can return to his young boy hood ways. Which if that is what he wants to do that is his choice. Renting is about the same as the mortgage amount we would need after the money we have left from this house.  We would have no other debt because we will have paid all of that out.

I didn't want to return to work because I wanted to be able to focus on our family.  I don't think that is possible.  I would love to work from home but that involves initial outlays of money, money we just don't have right now. That too though increases the stress as it would be other business to run.

Also the problem with renting is that we have 2 dogs and 2 cats. none of which we would ever want to give away.  They were our children before Tyler came along and they still are our fur children.  They are part of this family and will be till the day they pass on. Finding a rental that takes that many animals would be near to impossible.  We also need a house with side access and a shed as DH still needs to run his business from home.

We can't move in with my mum because her house and property doesn't cater for our medium sized dogs. That and she already has two small dogs and two cats of her own. that would be 4 dogs and 4 cats, 3 adults and 1 baby all under the same roof!  My dad lives on an industrial property so that isn't an option and we don't particularly get along anyway, oh and he definitely wouldn't want a baby living with him, he has seen Tyler 3 times since he was born. DHs family don't live anywhere near us.

Also with Buying re mortgaging our loan would be near impossible as I am not working and DH has only been in his business about 6 months! Currently its with my parents trust account but as they separated in February and are fighting like cats and dogs, we can't really keep some of the loan with them. we need to pay it fully out.

So ultimately I have no F-ing idea what to do.  I am the rock in this family so I need to figure something out! pfft on a few hours sleep that will be fun!