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So yesterday I entered the last year of my 20's.  Was a pretty crap day all round.  Started with DH forgetting it! He did remember and I got a hug and wished a happy birthday and that was it.  He is paying for it now though cause he is in big trouble!!  Then poor Tyler screamed ALL day! He threw up his morning dose of Losec I think, either that or I thought the new batch wasn't working, so he was in pain all day.  After his afternoon dose at 3pm he settled and crashed out until 6pm, he woke enough to get a bath and a feed and crashed out again from 7:30-10:30 and then again from 10:45-2:30 finally waking at 4am for his morning poo ritual! That to me is GREAT sleep though :) especially seeing as I haven't given him his top up formula of an evening for a while now.

As for me not sure what is up :( been feeling really unwell of late.  I started getting really tired about 4 days ago, felt too tired to lift my own harms and legs. Picking Tyler up was a real struggle I just couldn't cope with his weight I am a bit better now but still struggle, he feels like he is about 50kg not 6!  I had been getting heaps of sleep so who knows.  Then I started feeling nauseous 2 days ago.  I have nearly spontaneously thrown up a few times.  I am getting really really hungry quickly even after a big meal and it doesn't take me long to start feeling really sick if I don't eat something. If I knew there was no way I could be pregnant I would think I was.  We have DTD 4 times since Tyler was born! Yep crazy hey lol!!! Twice at around 4/5 weeks once around 6 weeks and then again at about 8 weeks. The first two we used the pull out method, third a condom and 4th nothing.  But I definitely couldn't be feeling pregnant from the one just over a week ago, and the other three very unlikely to be pregnant from those.  We used the pull out method successfully for 2 years and I know its not that we couldn't fall pregnant because ever time we tried well when my tube wasn't blocked we fell pregnant straight away. I did have spotting on about the 3rd or 4th November, it was around the time we DTD so it could have been from that, I had some strong cramps in the days following, figured AF was on its way but never showed. I am still getting light cramps pretty much every day but I figured its my body trying to figure itself out.

I have ordered some cheap hpt's of ebay and I am waiting for them to arrive. I will test but I am pretty much 100% sure I am not pregnant. Just annoying because after TTC for so long I knew exactly what my body was doing, now I have no idea.  I know I am not pregnant but have no idea why I am feeling this way! Maybe AF is finally on its way, I have been waiting for it to appear since I had that spotting and cramping 2 weeks ago.

Besides that I started Motilium at about 5 weeks and went off it about 4 days ago although I was only taking 2 a day if I remembered it for about a week! That increases your prolactin level and means there was even less chance that my body was even ovulating! I know I have definitely ovulated once I had all the signs and my body is normally pretty reliable, and it was around the time my milk supply pretty much vanished between the 4-5week mark, but as I said we pretty much had protect s3x.

Anyway enough babbling about that. Stupid brain still hasn't returned, apparently it never will!

I have my weekly mummies group this morning. One of the grandmas is an ex preschool teacher so she is going to start coming along and we are going to do sensory singing stuff?? All new to me my mum didn't even sing nursery rhymes to me. Looking forward to it though, I think Tyler will love it.

I had a look at a milestone chart the other day, Tyler is doing really well, he has ticked off all the 2 month ones already even the advanced ones and is starting to do some of the 3 month stuff.  I can't believe in 3 weeks he will be 12 weeks old!! CRAZY.  he isn't 3 months for another week after that!