Burping and endless screaming

I feel like I'm losing it. I feel like a useless mother. Nothing I do is working and Blake screams more and more and I get annoyed at him and then end up in tears eventually Blake burps and fall asleep. I hold him for longer crying that I got upset at him and feeling completely helpless.

So what am I babbling about. Well I mentioned Blake and his burping and the difficulty he has bringing the air up. He was spitting up but now he is on the AR formula he hasn't been spitting up but the wind is still a massive issue. It's causing him a lot of pain and he will scream and scream, he is tired but won't go to sleep, he ends up over tired and exhausted but after a very long time sometimes even an hour he will do a burp and relax completely and finally fall asleep. This I happening all the time, every feed/sleep. He has a bottle when he wakes and I will try to put him to sleep when he gets tired this might be 2-3hours but he will still have a burp in there. He sits up, plays crawls but this still doesn't help the air come up.

Agh!

I tried marina water before but it didn't do much. I might try it again now the AR formula seems to have helped with the spews.

He also has a cold so all in all just in a world of hurt and nothing I do seems to comfort him :(

On my admittance to the loony bin they did finally release me! Lol
I went back and had a look at when I got a bfp with Blake and I documented it well, one reason I really do love this blog. It's such a great documentation of my whole journey.
So I did a FR on cd24/10dpo (if I ovulated on cd14) and it was negative. That day I got bad sharp pains high on the left. I remember them well and recall feeling them when I feel pregnant with Tyler too. The next day I tested so cd25/11dpo and I got a faint positive.
Today I am cd23/9dpo. I don't think we are pregnant though. I know tomorrow is my normal implant day but I'm not feeling it. For days there i was like yep I think I'm going to be, now nope don't think so.
This would be cycle 3 of although not officially trying we DTD unprotected within normal fertile period. Cycle 1 I didn't ovulate till around cd21, cycle 2 cd16 and this cycle it was actually on time at cd14. That was 3 1/2 days as I am going by getting OV pains at around 11am massive amounts of ewcm and then the pains stopped and by 1pm all EWCM had gone and consistency changed.

3 1/2 days is perfect timing for what we were aiming for with the girl timing thing but I think its too big a window. I don't even know if keeping it at that time frame we would ever fall pregnant. Maybe B's sperm just isn't that robust and only survives 2 days. That completely blows the girl sway timing out the window!

Oh well be interesting if I do get sharp pains tomorrow or not!

I have so much to do in the next few weeks. In tired just thinking about it.

First up next weekend is my sisters hens. Still planning to do for that but we are mostly ready. Needed to catch up with one of the other bridesmaids to work out the final details but with the kids sick I don't want to make her kids sick.

Then the first weekend of aug is her wedding. Still waiting on our dresses to arrive should be here next week. I got my shoes on Wednesday, have to book in for my eye brow waxing, my nails, spray tan. I have ordered a fake onesie suit for Blake so cute, I still have to get Tyler's suit and B has to try his on. Hopefully it fits!!

The weekend after that I have a friends hens and then the last weekend aug her wedding. We r still to find a baby sitter for this!

2 weeks after this and Tyler turns 2! Omfg 2!!!!! We will be have a very all BBQ a few family and a couple of close friends that's it.

When I was reading back through my blog I was reading about the ms and exhaustion. If I do end up pregnant (again thinking I'm not going to) we won't be telling anyone at all and I will have to get through all this without letting on. Whoa that would be fun.
28days isn't long until ur waiting to test! So slow. What ever if I'm not I just hate waiting!