Lack of weight loss whinge

Sorry have to get this out so if u aren't up for listening to me whinge I would stop reading now.

So this probably has a lot to do with the whole family being sick for so long but I am really starting to get frustrated with not losing any weight.

I am done to 88.5 now which is 15.9kg lost since the day Blake was born. Might sound great but majority of that was lost in the first month just from baby and fluid etc. normal post birth stuff. I haven't lost much in months even with a great diet and low calorie intake. I need to exercise to lose weight I know this but I never get any time to exercise and i am getting so f'ing frustrated by it. I never get any time to myself full stop but I am sick of being over weight: its making very resentful toward B and that makes things even worse. He is going to his mates place about an hour and a half away next weekend for the whole weekend and normally I would be fine about it but lately as I have no time to myself why should he be allowed to?

I tried speaking to him about a week ago and I said I just want 1 hour a day where I can do some kind of exercise. 1 hour! Nope nothing. He goes to work at 6:30-7 but as I get up to the boys at 5-5:30 I can't really workout before that having an alarm go off wakes the whole house and would defeat the purpose. B will get up when his alarm goes off at 6 but I asked if Maybe he could take the boys in the morning and I work out then. That fell of deaf ears! Someone refuses to give up that extra sleep. So I asked if maybe he can schedule work to get home by 4 and take them then for an hour? If he starts at 7 surely 4 isn't a big ask! Nope couldn't do that either he said 5 was the earliest which is makes it time to get dinner made to be ready by 5:30 so we can sit down and eat. Then by time we do dinner bath and bed routine its 8pm and if I work out the it would be 9pm and probably midnight before I got down to bed. Up again at 3am if Blake wants a feed which still happens once or twice a week or 5am if he manages to sleep through. He has done the occasional 6:30 sleep in but then Tyler is still lucky to make it to 5:30. Either way I am always up very early.

I honestly don't know how I can fit a workout in :( I have no money for a gym membership and crèche. I don't have anyone else who can look after the kids for me.

I am so tried of being fat and more than willing to put in the effort if I simply had the time. Why is it that these people who are massively overweight and have made no effort get the opportunity like the biggest loser yet someone like me who only has 20kg to lose never gets those kinds of opportunities.

Like I said its a rant and a whinge. I have tired to think of every possibility but I always come up empty. Well unless I win the lotto and then I could afford a gym membership and crèche. Or even just a baby sitter while I go for a run.

So over it today. Boo who!!!