It started out with some very very sad news :( B's little brother and wife lost their little girl at 23weeks. I still don't know all the details but apparently she went for a scan, not sure if its because she hadn't felt movements in a while but apparently she had passed at around 20weeks. :( she was induced on Wednesday and gave birth to a little girl. I can't even imagine the pain they are feeling right now :(
Labour is a physically and emotionally draining experience let alone to go through it all to only say good bye to your precious baby at the end :(
The same day I got news that some friends who had been ttc#2 for a while and miscarried a few months back are pregnant again.
Then the next day a good friend of mine had a baby girl. :) she didn't know what she was having and she did have another traumatic birth experience but both mum and bub are doing ok.
I am so happy yet so sad all at the same time.
It has definitely got me thinking though about number3. Many different aspects of number3.
I am getting older and B's sister in law losing a bub brings back all the concerns of having kids when ur older. I will be 31/32 when we try for the next one an that's certainly no spring chicken. Not only does it get harder during the pregnancy but it takes ur body longer to recover and the more other kids u have to run around after well the more challenging it all gets. You also have all the increased medical conditions that can arise as you get older etc. it all comes into play!
Then there is the cluckiness from all the girls being born around me. I do still long for that girl. Don't get me wrong another 2 boys would be wonderful but a girl would amazing. I have no intention trying for a bub until mid next year but I am wanting to do my research into increasing my chances for a girl. I know I can fall pregnant with a girl. The first little bub I lost was a girl. I was 20kg lighter than I am now so I want to get back to my pre-TTC weight and stay there for a few months before we try. I also want to track my cycles for a while so we can time DTD so we can optimise the girl window.
I am a little concerned about this cycle. I am thinking I have EWCM today. It's cD20! Wtf? Guess I will find out in a week if AF turns up on time. I have no worries about being pregnant B and I are both on the same page regarding that.
On other news things are finally getting better in our house. Both the boys seem to be over this flu. I still have a cough and thinking I might need antibiotics but might give it another day or so. Need to take Blake in for his needles early next week so might get some then if its no better.
Doesn't help that Tyler has been waking multiple times a night. Blake was waking twice but is back to only once. He is going through a massive growth spurt so I don't mind but when Tyler is waking too I really don't get any sleep after midnight.
Not sure if its due to his eye teeth cutting or if his ear ache is back. Will have to take him to the dr too. This mummy needs some sleep.
Tyler was 19months yesterday and his language is exploding. He can point to some animals in his book and say what it is and what noise it makes. He will sing his numbers and alphabet with his nursery rhymes. He repeats every word we ask him to. My favourite is chocolate. Him saying that is just adorable. Love baby talk!
Little Blake has mastered rolling. He managed to sit for 2 secs unassisted today. Lol only once though. Still a while off. I am weaned him out of his sleeping wings. Yay! My little boy is growing up fast!! He plays with his toys well grabbing them and putting them into his mouth.
The boys have started to interact more. Because Blakey is more aware and responsive Tyler is starting to enjoy playing with him. Not that it's really playing but its so nice to see.
Love my boys :)
I do have to say though having 2 so close together is certainly a challenge especially when they and u are all sick. I do love new borns they are so tiny and squishy and cuddly but I do love it when then move into the next stage and are more interactive and responsive etc. it'a the first few months that are certainly the most challanging. I am sure I will have more challenges along the way but I feel like we have turned a corner in the last day or 2. Started to move into that next phase.
Really looking forward to the next few months :)
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