38weeks

14days to go!

Well the cracker of a headache is back again today :( I just can't seem to shake it so I am now wondering if it will be here until the end! 2 weeks possibly 3 so not too long! I have been thinking about asking Dr A to do a stretch and sweep tomorrow. I am really not keen on having this done as it does sound so painful but I would really like to get the ball rolling. I feel I have completely stalled. It may not do anything anyway yet it just might.  That and DH doesn't have much work on this week so if it came this week it would be good!  Not sure Dr A would agree to it though. Will see how I feel tomorrow.

On another note I had a horrible dream last night, I have been having ones where bubby doesn't make it and of course that isn't a dream its a nightmare but the one I had last night was where I didn't make it through delivery.  It was so sad I woke up balling my eyes out.  The thought that I never ever got to hold my little peanut! That I would never get to be a mum to my little one. :( OMG even thinking about it now it was so sad! I don't know why these dreams need to happen they are so silly and just make you so worried and anxious about everything.

I really do wish there was some way to get things moving. lol! I am definitely not willing to try castor oil that's for sure!

I am going to pick up the ingredients to make lactation cookies tomorrow.  Figured it can't help to start on these :) Also going to go back to having my smoothies to begin shifting some of this weight.  bubby is at full size now so cutting back on my diet wont hurt.  Not that I have been eating much at all anyway. I have been so off food for the last two weeks. I just eat because I know I should be. I have to keep my calorie intake to a certain level for breast feeding but I will monitor it closely.  We want to try for #2 in March next year and I want to be back to my pre TTC weight before then!

I wonder if I bounce on this fit ball all day if it would do anything lol! Probably not!