So we are back to crunch time again. I have given everything I can, we will BD every 2nd day, and then its up to nature. Being this tired now though I always get those thoughts in my head. It hasn't worked the last 4 months why would this month be any different. At the same time, I think but there is nothing stopping us from falling pregnant this month so maybe.
I just don't ever imagining getting to see those two lines again. I have to say the next pregnancy will be a complete surprise because I am simply not expecting it to actually happen!!
I've definitely done the rounds of TTC now, falling pregnant easily, 2 miscarriages, having to wait, back to TTC but struggling! Its a hard thing to deal with to know you could fall pregnant so easily but for some reason now you can't. In the space of 13months. You just want answers but you will never get them because there is no answer. Its simply just going to take time and you have no idea how long that is.
I do really wonder if I will be pregnant by my 28th Birthday. I have this cycle and the next one!
Scares me too I guess because if we are lucky this cycle we hit the same milestones as my first pregnancy, I would have loved to have been 12weeks by my birthday but instead now I have to pray I hear a heart beat unlike Nov last year when we found out we lost the baby two days before my birthday.
Some days this waiting game is just too much. I just wish I was pregnant already and could move onto the next stage. I have been acting like I am pregnant for 13months now, "Preconception" they call it. I have had a few drinks and things in there but 90% of the time I have been really good, and now its perfect. Makes it hard when things don't work. You do just want to relax with a glass for wine, some soft cheese and a really soppy movie. All I can have now is just the soppy movie! lol
Anyway I hope it all wont matter in a couple of weeks and we finally get that stick BFP!
Back to good old work!
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