OK will try this again! really tired again today so have to somehow find the strength to even write this.
So I have to say the universe can definitely be so VERY cruel sometimes. I think it might be time to go upstairs and have a chat with the Big man. Nani didn't deserve that and she definitely didn't deserve it on her birthday! take that! and that! and that!
Maybe her body just wasn't ready for a new little bubba yet, and the next one will be right! She will be pg again very soon, its just the nasty blows we could all do without.
So FF caught up this morning! put in proper cross hairs. So officially 3DPO and probably only 9days until testing seeing as I have been having a 12day LP at the most recently! Getting a few cramps still every now and again. Nothing much, just there, but I also think that is becoming the norm for me lately!
3 days of work to go then 5 days off! OMG I need it!
Berry
Tyler
Blake
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Saturday, June 5, 2010
A brighter day
So today it does definitely feel so much brighter!
Nani had an awesome temp dip and beautiful rise this morning, and a little spotting yesterday! its really just to perfect! No bfp yet but I think its just a matter of time. All natural this cycle so it may just take her body a couple of days to register. I have done my 2 pregnancies naturally and 10dpo even with implantation was too early! oh oh oh I have such a good feeling there!
GS has ovulated and BDed at the right time! in the TWW but it wont take long! I really hope this is her time too!
Summa has a great shot this month! her DH WILL (see that Summa) WILL be home at the right time!
and for me I have definitely ovulated! FF put in my cross hairs funny, the day before the positive opk! weird but doesn't matter I know what the dealeo is and I will just do a manual override.
I want all of this to work out so much! Its so all our time! Feb/march babies all around! woohoo!
On another note I was till feeling sick all day yesterday and last night but I feel heaps better this morning! so must have definitely been the clomid!
Off to pick up a mattress that I bought for the cot this morning! its a bit of a drive but its worth it. Brand new inner spring water proof. from ebay only paid $78 for it!
and seeing as its monday again tomorrow its grocery shopping oh and better do the house work I suppose! lol!
Still feel its a VERY good day today! Still so excited for Nani!!!!!!!!!
Nani had an awesome temp dip and beautiful rise this morning, and a little spotting yesterday! its really just to perfect! No bfp yet but I think its just a matter of time. All natural this cycle so it may just take her body a couple of days to register. I have done my 2 pregnancies naturally and 10dpo even with implantation was too early! oh oh oh I have such a good feeling there!
GS has ovulated and BDed at the right time! in the TWW but it wont take long! I really hope this is her time too!
Summa has a great shot this month! her DH WILL (see that Summa) WILL be home at the right time!
and for me I have definitely ovulated
! FF put in my cross hairs funny, the day before the positive opk! weird but doesn't matter I know what the dealeo is and I will just do a manual override. I want all of this to work out so much! Its so all our time! Feb/march babies all around! woohoo!
On another note I was till feeling sick all day yesterday and last night but I feel heaps better this morning! so must have definitely been the clomid!
Off to pick up a mattress that I bought for the cot this morning! its a bit of a drive but its worth it. Brand new inner spring water proof. from ebay only paid $78 for it!
and seeing as its monday again tomorrow its grocery shopping oh and better do the house work I suppose! lol!
Still feel its a VERY good day today! Still so excited for Nani!!!!!!!!!
Friday, June 4, 2010
CD17
Ok so things are looking up! I MAY have ovulated! My temp was up this morning YAY!
Will try and wait till tomorrow thought to confirm before I let me mind wonder away but I am really hoping that was it. honestly if it goes down tomorrow I really don't know how I am going to feel!
Wow still so very very tired at the moment. Just had a nap. Its making me feel really sick. My tummy has been off. Started dry reaching last night just after I went to bed. Did the same thing this morning after a cup of tea. Have really bad headache too. Side effects of the clomid me is thinking! Must because of all things its doing to my hormones right about now!
I keep trying to coax myself into having some kind of patience but I am really not getting there. I know I have done the best I can at this. I will try to get some more action today just to make sure, so we only missed 1 day, but not knowing if I did indeed ovulate, I think once I know if I have I will be able to sit back a bit. But the not knowing is what I can't handle!
waiting waiting and more waiting. If I did ovulate my test day is Drum roll......the 18th!!!! 13 days to go!
Will try and wait till tomorrow thought to confirm before I let me mind wonder away but I am really hoping that was it. honestly if it goes down tomorrow I really don't know how I am going to feel!
Wow still so very very tired at the moment. Just had a nap. Its making me feel really sick. My tummy has been off. Started dry reaching last night just after I went to bed. Did the same thing this morning after a cup of tea. Have really bad headache too. Side effects of the clomid me is thinking! Must because of all things its doing to my hormones right about now!
I keep trying to coax myself into having some kind of patience but I am really not getting there. I know I have done the best I can at this. I will try to get some more action today just to make sure, so we only missed 1 day, but not knowing if I did indeed ovulate, I think once I know if I have I will be able to sit back a bit. But the not knowing is what I can't handle!
waiting waiting and more waiting. If I did ovulate my test day is Drum roll......the 18th!!!! 13 days to go!
CD16/0dpo
So as my title says 0 days dpo! Been having a very weird day! REALLY emotional, crampy and bad back ache and REALLY REALLY tied, mind not on the job, very foggy nothing making sense. This arvo just before I left work I felt this very odd feeling down there. Popped to the bathroom on my way out, massive amount of EWCM. I was praying I was wrong but I did an opk when I got home and it was a straight away positive.
The last time I got a positive opk I got a temp spike the next morning, so hopefully its tonight, CD16 isn't too bad.
Spoke to DH about it he want's to keep trying. I am a little scared. Simply because I did have that spike on CD13 the same as January and I am scared of a repeat! I mean really scared. But if anyone reads this please pray for me. I am not sure how I will cope if I go through that again. I don't mind if I just get AF and its all over we try again the next month. But to have an incomplete miscarriage that carries on for 3 months then another 3 months of waiting after. I couldn't cope with that.
I will be OK. I will be OK. I will be OK!
The last time I got a positive opk I got a temp spike the next morning, so hopefully its tonight, CD16 isn't too bad.
Spoke to DH about it he want's to keep trying. I am a little scared. Simply because I did have that spike on CD13 the same as January and I am scared of a repeat! I mean really scared. But if anyone reads this please pray for me. I am not sure how I will cope if I go through that again. I don't mind if I just get AF and its all over we try again the next month. But to have an incomplete miscarriage that carries on for 3 months then another 3 months of waiting after. I couldn't cope with that.
I will be OK. I will be OK. I will be OK!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
CD16/3dpo
OK so where do I start! I am SO VERY VERY confused. Why can't this crap be simple! Just every now and again! 
So here is the problem. 3 days ago I had a temp increase from 36.15 to 35.46. First temp of the morning no problems!
Yesterday 1st temp was 36.28. like WTF as I explained yesterday. got under the covers and it was 36.41. Today 1st temp was 36.38 again WTF! got under the covers 36.52. So this is where the confusions starts and I going to complete ramble here but I need to get it out of my head.
3 days ago it was warmer, I didn't feel cold when I woke up, temp was fine. Winter has well and truly started and the last couple of days have been freezing, I wake up cold first temp is low, get under the covers where I feel comfortable and my temp is where it should be. Problem is that is completely manipulating my BBT! So I honestly have NO idea if I have ovulated or not! I was going over and over it in my head. Clearly my temp is going up, low temps were .28 to .38 my higher temps were .41 to .52 so looking at it that way it could be right. But my temps before possible ovulation where so much higher than normal! OMG so confused! Then with the Clomid and the strong drop of BBT made me think high oestrogen so maybe a couple of eggs. But my patter if I have ovulated is definitely only 1. Which is 1 fine 1 is good :) but doesn't explain the good estrogen and the crap progesterone!
So I have emailed Brad (OBGYN) to see what he thinks. I am completely petrified of history repeating itself and my reasoning is telling me even though I ovulated on CD23 last month I still managed a decent LP. which compared to Jan I ovulated late and had a REALLY short LP. Problem is the .31 degree thermal shift. If I didn't ovulate that thermal shift could cause my body to think I did ovulate even if I didn't! and if that is the case it will be a repeat of Jan because AF will arrive around Monday the 14th, but If I don't ovulate until CD18 which is the 6th it gives egg 8 days to implant which wont happen and AF will arrive egg will implant after and OMG deja vu!
This is just too much today! I wanted to be happy that it was Friday! I am so tired again and this is just all too much! I just want to go home and cry and sleep and get warm! I HATE WINTER!
its too cold, me and the cold really really dislike each other! I would prefer 40 degrees to this crap! always feeling cold down to the bone!
Symptom wise I do feel like I have ovulated. I have uterus cramps, a few cramps from the right ovary but the left is definitely quiet now nothing from it! Really sore back but not sure if thats from something else or its the uterus cramps. Kinda like AF I guess. CM has gone creamy but is very minimal! Probably because of Clomid and dehydration! Water even at room temperature is too cold for me in winter!
Man this is a bad post today. Tired and cranky! GRR!
EDIT: So yet again I find myself with one of THOSE days, where I have to find the strength and resolve to keep on moving. To get on with my job even though I just want to go home get back into bed and forget about it all! To pretend that everything is OK and even really good and happy at times. I don't want to be around anyone today I just want to feel the way I am feeling. I am tired of pretending it makes me even more tired! One of those days where my strength of character is tested again! What doesn't kill us makes us stronger right! well I am going to be the incredible hulk soon! hmmmm hmmmm hmmmm too tired for a Grr anymore!
So here is the problem. 3 days ago I had a temp increase from 36.15 to 35.46. First temp of the morning no problems!
Yesterday 1st temp was 36.28. like WTF as I explained yesterday. got under the covers and it was 36.41. Today 1st temp was 36.38 again WTF! got under the covers 36.52. So this is where the confusions starts and I going to complete ramble here but I need to get it out of my head.
3 days ago it was warmer, I didn't feel cold when I woke up, temp was fine. Winter has well and truly started and the last couple of days have been freezing, I wake up cold first temp is low, get under the covers where I feel comfortable and my temp is where it should be. Problem is that is completely manipulating my BBT! So I honestly have NO idea if I have ovulated or not! I was going over and over it in my head. Clearly my temp is going up, low temps were .28 to .38 my higher temps were .41 to .52 so looking at it that way it could be right. But my temps before possible ovulation where so much higher than normal! OMG so confused! Then with the Clomid and the strong drop of BBT made me think high oestrogen so maybe a couple of eggs. But my patter if I have ovulated is definitely only 1. Which is 1 fine 1 is good :) but doesn't explain the good estrogen and the crap progesterone!
So I have emailed Brad (OBGYN) to see what he thinks. I am completely petrified of history repeating itself and my reasoning is telling me even though I ovulated on CD23 last month I still managed a decent LP. which compared to Jan I ovulated late and had a REALLY short LP. Problem is the .31 degree thermal shift. If I didn't ovulate that thermal shift could cause my body to think I did ovulate even if I didn't! and if that is the case it will be a repeat of Jan because AF will arrive around Monday the 14th, but If I don't ovulate until CD18 which is the 6th it gives egg 8 days to implant which wont happen and AF will arrive egg will implant after and OMG deja vu!
This is just too much today! I wanted to be happy that it was Friday! I am so tired again and this is just all too much! I just want to go home and cry and sleep and get warm! I HATE WINTER!
its too cold, me and the cold really really dislike each other! I would prefer 40 degrees to this crap! always feeling cold down to the bone! Symptom wise I do feel like I have ovulated. I have uterus cramps, a few cramps from the right ovary but the left is definitely quiet now nothing from it! Really sore back but not sure if thats from something else or its the uterus cramps. Kinda like AF I guess. CM has gone creamy but is very minimal! Probably because of Clomid and dehydration! Water even at room temperature is too cold for me in winter!
Man this is a bad post today. Tired and cranky! GRR!
EDIT: So yet again I find myself with one of THOSE days, where I have to find the strength and resolve to keep on moving. To get on with my job even though I just want to go home get back into bed and forget about it all! To pretend that everything is OK and even really good and happy at times. I don't want to be around anyone today I just want to feel the way I am feeling. I am tired of pretending it makes me even more tired! One of those days where my strength of character is tested again! What doesn't kill us makes us stronger right! well I am going to be the incredible hulk soon! hmmmm hmmmm hmmmm too tired for a Grr anymore!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
HMMMM
So where do I start! HHMMMM 
(HAHAH Yes GS and Summa I managed to put in a smiley!-Watch out)
Ok back to it! So I woke up to take my temp this morning and OMG its 36.28! like WTF
So me being me went as if! and took it again and I get a 36.41. So I am thinking OK thats all right I usually have a slight fall back rise! but do an analysis on my FF chart and not so happy Jan. Because my temps were higher before ovulation the 36.41 wont be above coverline! GS happy for you to jump in with an opinion on that!
So now I have no idea what the hell is going on.
I was thinking maybe I have released 2 eggs one slightly late creating the lower than normal temps. lol I know stupid but hey a girl has to dream!
Again its a tomorrow will tell. But if I don't see a decent increase I am going to start to worry its a repeat of January. If thats the case OMG watch out ovaries
On another note hugs to GS,
. As Summa said TTC is so tough sometimes. I really wish we could all reach our destinations now!
Had a massive fight with DH this morning.
Apparently I haven't been giving him enough attention! He must be feeling like a used piece of meat or something! Man men can be so sensitive and they can be a complete over reacting girl sometimes 
!!
But in terms of possibly ovulating, I do feel like I have. Nipples are sore, cramps have started already. But today WOW I am so tired, this clomid really knocked me for 6. I feel completely out of my body today. My legs and arms don't feel like they belong to me. I am on complete auto pilot. How I am going to make it through without either coffee or a nap
I have no idea!
Well best get to work!
2 days to go!!!
(HAHAH Yes GS and Summa I managed to put in a smiley!-Watch out)Ok back to it! So I woke up to take my temp this morning and OMG its 36.28! like WTF
So me being me went as if! and took it again and I get a 36.41. So I am thinking OK thats all right I usually have a slight fall back rise! but do an analysis on my FF chart and not so happy Jan. Because my temps were higher before ovulation the 36.41 wont be above coverline! GS happy for you to jump in with an opinion on that! So now I have no idea what the hell is going on.
I was thinking maybe I have released 2 eggs one slightly late creating the lower than normal temps. lol I know stupid but hey a girl has to dream! Again its a tomorrow will tell. But if I don't see a decent increase I am going to start to worry its a repeat of January. If thats the case OMG watch out ovaries
On another note hugs to GS,
. As Summa said TTC is so tough sometimes. I really wish we could all reach our destinations now! Had a massive fight with DH this morning.
Apparently I haven't been giving him enough attention! He must be feeling like a used piece of meat or something! Man men can be so sensitive and they can be a complete over reacting girl sometimes !! But in terms of possibly ovulating, I do feel like I have. Nipples are sore, cramps have started already. But today WOW I am so tired, this clomid really knocked me for 6. I feel completely out of my body today. My legs and arms don't feel like they belong to me. I am on complete auto pilot. How I am going to make it through without either coffee or a nap
I have no idea! Well best get to work!
2 days to go!!!
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
CD14/1DPO
So the wonderful news is that I looks like I did ovulate yesterday. I had a nice temp rise this morning, and when I overlayed my chart in FF it matches very well. Its a perfect CD ovulation and BDing was perfect we didn't miss a day. So hopefully in 14days we see those two lines.
Everything points toward it, had some Killer pains last night. My left ovary felt like it was bursting. for about two hours I had pulsing pain every few minutes, and every time I felt it I could imagine my little white ovary bursting into a million pieces landing all over the walls of my insides! After BDing last night I had cramps and this morning I had a few sharp pains in my right ovary and a little bit of dull cramping but its all eased off now. I feel completely normal.
So you may be thinking I don't sound very excited. Oh I am, EXTREMELY excited for me, but very sad for a friend. Her ovaries are decided to be temperamental, incorporating little so and so! Even her Dr based on BT confirmed she would ovulate yesterday! But NOTHING! her temp is slightly lower this morning! I mean COME ON universe give her a break! *Shakes fists up toward the heavens*
I was so excited when I saw my temp this morning and thought we would be ovulation buddies. Why didn't this work for her? Why? There has to be something there causing this.
Well best get to work, I have a performance review to complete! If I wasn't getting a bonus and a possible pay rise out of it I probably wouldn't put so much effort in, but extra money always comes in handy!
But I will be doing an ovulation and BDing dance ALL day in hope that it helps my friends ovaries pop and her DH to get in the sack!
Everything points toward it, had some Killer pains last night. My left ovary felt like it was bursting. for about two hours I had pulsing pain every few minutes, and every time I felt it I could imagine my little white ovary bursting into a million pieces landing all over the walls of my insides! After BDing last night I had cramps and this morning I had a few sharp pains in my right ovary and a little bit of dull cramping but its all eased off now. I feel completely normal.
So you may be thinking I don't sound very excited. Oh I am, EXTREMELY excited for me, but very sad for a friend. Her ovaries are decided to be temperamental, incorporating little so and so! Even her Dr based on BT confirmed she would ovulate yesterday! But NOTHING! her temp is slightly lower this morning! I mean COME ON universe give her a break! *Shakes fists up toward the heavens*
I was so excited when I saw my temp this morning and thought we would be ovulation buddies. Why didn't this work for her? Why? There has to be something there causing this.
Well best get to work, I have a performance review to complete! If I wasn't getting a bonus and a possible pay rise out of it I probably wouldn't put so much effort in, but extra money always comes in handy!
But I will be doing an ovulation and BDing dance ALL day in hope that it helps my friends ovaries pop and her DH to get in the sack!
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