Good feelings

I have to say I am feeling really good at the moment. Really positive and happy. I don't know if we will get lucky this month but even if we aren't I know I will be OK. I have good feelings that we may get lucky but if we don't it doesn't matter. I have spent so much of the last year since my m/c wrapped up in all the negativity surrounding TTC. I am not feeling any of that anymore.

I guess I ultimately feel lucky. I have plan B which is IUI and IVF, I don't think we will get to that but the plan is there anyway. But I heard from a TTC friend yesterday. It had been a while and I just wanted to check in and see how she was going. She had 3 m/c :( poor thing. But she had a heap of bloods done after the last one and they all came back clear. So she had genetic testing done. So has a genetic disorder where she only has 45 Chromosomes not 46. :( my heart just broke for her when I read that. its apparently 1in 1300 which is really rather common which is scary.

She found out her mother and brother have it to. So for her to be able to have a healthy baby she has to go through IVF genetic selection and then match it up with one of her DH's swimmers. Its going to be a hard road ahead for them and heart goes out to them both.

Things like that make me realise how lucky I am. No matter how hard you may think you have it someone else is always having a much worse day! :(

On another note I watched SATC2 and the back up plan again last night. Two fantastic wonderful girlie movies! Was wonderful to spend some girlie time with my sister. Don't get to see her much anymore as she lives interstate. But she has finally met a man and they are talking about being engaged by the end of the year and married next year. I am so excited for her. Its about time she met the man for her. And he seems wonderful. We always knew once she met the right one it would be a whirl wind relationship. So looks like my kids will have cousins from my family around the same age. YAY!

We had a joke about her falling pregnant before me. She was like oh no i wouldn't do that to you! I just said she was an idiot. I would be so ecstatic if she fell pregnant. That would make me so very very happy. Just because we have had a shit journey doesn't mean people should have to tip toe around us. I have dealt with my cards and moved on. I wouldn't wish this journey on anyone EVER! so nothing would make me happier if she fell pregnant and carried to full term. I would love a little niece or nephew.

Well enough blabble for one Sunday best get ready to head out for a nice sunday morning breaky and the markets.