9w6d

My little peanut reaches double digits tomorrow! :hyper:

I am still really nervous.  seeing miscarriages happen so often is so scary.  We are up to 97 babies in the due it Sept thread.  So far 5 have sadly miscarried.  I went back to August, 91Babies, 13 miscarried.  :no: Thats just so horrible. With it being so close now the thought of loosing it now is terrifying.

I am still really sick.  Peanut throws up any food it doesn't like! It really really hates eggs.  Anything with egg in it, up it comes.  The headaches are really really bad now.  Almost at migraine level.  Last night was a shocker and I had no panodol in the house!  I thought my head was going to explode.  I eventually fell asleep and woke up this morning and it was gone! Its gradually coming back now though.  I am thinking of going and floating in the pool for a while to ease it.

All these thoughts of miscarriage have me checking peanuts HR a bit more often.  I can find it now really easily and within seconds without any pushing.  Its a very reassuring sound! Finding it fast means that I don't have to hold the wand thing there for too long.  I know they say its completely harmless at 3MHz but still the less the better!  Only 2 weeks to go! 2weeks3days until I come out of the pregnancy closet!  Its scary thinking not this week but next Wed I have to go do my NT Bloods!!!!!!! :eek:

So on other news, more stress in my life! I am not talking to my parents. They are being children! Long story short. Dad was just about to start a business with DH. DH resigned from his job and has been working there for about 2 weeks.  Dad decided in this time he wanted to leave my mum but still have access to her half of superannuation so they could get this business off the ground.  Mum got angry at me and DH for going into business with Dad after everything he did to her.  She refused to lend the money (which I can understand) So now business isn't going ahead. DH has to either find new work or go into another business.  All whilst he isn't getting paid, bills and mortgage are due, Baby on the way!  I get a massive pay out from my work in June, and I should get 3 months maternity leave but I was planning to be a SAHM because we want to have a few kids close together.  Unless I have a c-section we wont be using contraction after this one is born.  Its up to Breast feeding to stop me falling pregnant! Anyway, looks like I would have to go back to work after 3 months! GRRR

So I am thinking its finally time to take my photography hobby to more of a professional level.  I love doing portrait photography and it would be a perfect fit.  I have 10 months to get that fully up and running and hopefully if I can bring enough money in from that I wont have to return to my current work.  Being a scientist I have to travel to get work.  Only about an hour away but there is absolutely nothing out my way. :( I don't want to spend that much time away from bub.  I also don't want a day care raising my child.  I know we will work it out and we will make the best of all of this.  I just don't enjoy the stress of it at the time.

DH has never had the opportunity to do anything like this and he is scared, going into business on your own is a massive step.  But I just wish he saw in himself what I see in him.  I know he can do it and I know he will do it exceptionally well.  He will be a wonderful and brilliant father and he will doing a fantastic job at providing for this family.  Its just so daunting sometimes, even I know that.  I have always been a very driven, career minded person that knows what I want and works my a$$ off to get it no matter how far away it seems.  I am trying to build this confidence into DH.  Growing up in a family of 8 kids like he did you kinda blend into the background after a while.

Anyway enough rambling  and my headache is getting worse! Pool time.

Growth Spurt

Well peanut seems to be having another growth spurt.  ms is back in full swing this morning.  I took a maxolon before and now the hard mental battle of trying to stop myself throwing up and so I don't waste it lol.  Other than that i am so tired. I thought I was tired last week, this is on a whole new level.  I actually think I will fall a sleep whilst sitting at some point today! Again I was going to call in sick, my body is telling me it needs sleep but I had a feeling the part time lady would call in sick again and another girl just got back from Singapore and she hasn't been feeling all that well either.  The part time lady might have ross river fever the poor thing.  I have to say I am relieved its not shingles! She is still waiting test results though.

I love it when the weeks tick over and my little ticker on the side shows peanut changing.  I know its still only really tiny but definitely human looking now!

I only have to make it until 3:30 and I can go home! hmm not looking forward to the hour drive home though.  I have one coffee a day but I need it now I can't keep it until just before the drive home. Hopefully the tiredness and fogginess will wear off by then.

I am nearly at double digits! lol I remember thinking that just before my 10th birthday.  10weeks!  Thats a bit exciting! only 2weeks6days to go.  Although we are waiting until the NT scan to tell everyone at least if I hear the heart beat at 12weeks I know peanut is going to be OK! :)  

well best try and do some work!

proud

So peanut was a good baby today.  I found the heart beat and was able to measure it. 180!! YAY!  Mum couldn't be prouder of her little peanut! I tried to record it but it didn't work! oh well next time!

Its so so so hot today.  Time to go for a swim! :)

OMG

I just heard peanuts Heart beat on my doppler for the first time!!!!!!  The flutters where to light for the doppler to count them it kept missing some beats but the sound was unmistakable.  Sounded exactly like during the ultrasound!  I can clearly tell the difference too between bubs and the placenta.  Man peanut moves around though lol.  I read something on BH today a girl said to make sure you bladder is really full and you can hear more in the early stages.  So I tried it and yep it worked!! YAY so excited!

Apparently I can recored it on this doppler.  DH will have to help me with that.  But I will and I will post it on here :) I am so proud of our little peanut, growing so big and strong.  Keep going little one!

8w5d

So my ms has settled down a bit.  Not as much throwing up.   Perhaps only twice a day, mainly just dry reaching.  I do feel constant nausea all day though, and the tiredness has really set in.  its 8:05am and I just want to curl up under my desk and sleep.  I was going to call in sick lucky I didn't I just had a call from our part time lady, she think she may have shingles! OMG! I have never had chicken pox and although I got the vaccine about 18months ago but they can't test to see if you created immunity to it.  which is stupid.  I had the test done to see if i had chicken pox when I was younger, this was after the vaccine and it came up as Negative for immunity.  But in the tiny fine print down the bottom there was a clause, may not pick up immunity if given vaccine.  or something along those lines!

but anyway she is staying home and going to the Dr which is good.  Don't want to catch that if the vaccine didn't work!

Oh the heart burn has gotten really bad.  tums are my best friend at the moment! and the best thing EVER they aren't mint flavour! I hate mint and 99.9% of antacid tablets are mint.  The last think I want when my chest is burning like crazy is to chew on something that tingles my mouth and creates more saliva!

I booked my NT appointment yesterday if I haven't said so already.  I can't remember yesterday!  But its for the 2nd March! Feels like an age away.  But a friend who is still TTC rightly pointed out its only 1 cycle!  22days 15hours till peanut is "Safer"  and 26days6hours until my NT scan and we can announce it!

I finally picked up something on the Doppler last night.  Definitely wasn't peanut, I am thinking placenta, it was more a whooshing beat at 125. Do some goggling later!  But thats a bit more exciting.  Looking forward to being able to hear its little heart beating away.  Stupid retroverted uterus.  Dr A said it will straighten up as the pregnancy progresses!

Oh and yeah ITS FRIDAY!!!!!!!!

Getting the matress for our new king size bed delivered tomorrow! YAY.  Then DH just has to make the bed frame and I am going to buy a decorative bed head.

hmm what else.  Nothing much else, I think thats enough rambling from my foggy brain right now!

YAY

Well our 2nd scan went really well! YAY.  I couldn't see too much but I could see peanut had definitely grown and had a really nice strong heart beat of 181!!!!

Apparently my uterus is sitting slightly retroverted so it was hard to get a good shot! But thats OK I didn't see the point in doing an internal.  The heart beat is the most important!

So now I have to book in for my NT scan and once that is booked I make another appointment to go back and see Dr A.  I can then also book into the hospital and things.  Also have my request form for my 19 week morphology scan.  Dr A said I could come back in for a scan in 2 weeks.  I will see how I go! If I get nervous I will go back in! :)

Seems to be moving all so fast.  3weeks 4 days to go.  I am starting to get a little tiny bit excited that this might actually be happening.

I am having a good day with the ms.  I was really tired earlier today and feeling really really hung over.  Only threw up 3 times today but after my good news this afternoon I have a bit more energy! :)  I got a script for Maxolon and also these wafer things you put under the tongue??  I wont use them unless I really need to.

Nervous

5 hours to go!!!!!!  Very nervous.  Please let little peanut be strong and healthy.  Even with all the sickness I can't get it through my thick head that this might actually be happening.  3 1/2 weeks till it becomes real!