Work & weightloss

The two have nothing to do with each other but I do want to write about the both of them today.

Work.
This is constantly on my mind. I have absolutely no idea what I am going to do. Doesn't help that financially we are really struggling right now. So we moved about 12 months ago and we moved another 20mins away from the city. This was for B's business as most of his work was out this way and carrying a heavy trailer was costing too much in fuel let alone the time he lost in constantly traveling.

The problem is I have a biomedical science degree. Jobs for me are at universities which the closest is 40mins away or I can also work in a medical lab which is about 40mins away too. I can work at a school doing lab tech but those jobs come up rarely and although I would be over qualified for the job it would work in so well with the family. This ends the options I have using my degree.

Other than this I can just get a job locally but with the amount of money i would be earning and having to pay for day care would it be worth it? Probably not and it's also a waste of my 4 year degree and all the money it cost me to do it.

I could go back to study but we don't have the money even with postgraduate fee help. Also having the time would be hard. B struggles with his business let alone helping me out at home at all.

I am so very very confused at what to do. I have been looking through job websites but getting no where.

Now leaves the weightloss! This just down right sucks. I hate not being able to exercise. I went for a walk every day last week and ate so well and didn't loose a single Fing kilo! Wtf! I am 93kg. Eating well and exercising the weight should come off. Not like I am in the lower weight range and have those difficult last 10kg to lose. No have I 30kg to go. agh! So annoyed! So now this week it's already Friday and I have only been for 1 walk. Having 2 little ones it takes a lot to organize to get to exercise everyday. Some days I gave up a nap to exercise and why it did nothing. This week I have just been too tired to bother. I have to get my motivation back though I really do need to get this weight off for my sisters wedding. I just want to start running and to feel like I am actually achieving something when I exercise. Walking seems pointless.

So all round I'm having a bad week.

The boys are good.
Tyler is a bit sore :( when I took Blake in for his initial circumcision appointment i asked the lady about tylers and his puppy fat pushing the skin forward and the skin having healed over etc. She said it needed to be pulled back :( I said I could do it and I have done it. I used numbing cream etc but it was still painful. Now at every nappy change I have to pull it back dab it with salty water and let it air dry. This causes him pain as the skin is red raw where I had to pull it back :( but the skin needs to seal so it doesn't restick again. Hopefully it only takes a couple of days. If it doesn't work I have to talk to the dr on monday when I take Blake in to get done.

Little Blake has Been a little upset. I think it's the heat. Which is crap as we still have the hottest month to go yet and the majority of this one. He is such a hot baby too. He sleeps in the aircon in our bedroom but this mucks up his day and night routine. Agh. Last couple of days I have been giving him more awake time out in the lounge room and his night routine has been great. He was spending a few hours awake at night :( but since keeping him awake a bit during the day he has been sleeping 8pm-1am. Feeding for 30mins then back down until 4:45am feeding for 10mins on 1 side and goes back down till 6am! It's great. :)

Well mummies group this morning so better get ready. Can't believe little blake is 5weeks old already!!