35weeks

35days to go!
Warning this post is a really vent as I need to get it out somewhere so if ur not up for listening to a full b*t*h and whinge close the screen now!

So where do I start?
Firstly I am so sick of being sick and tired. The headaches are becoming too much, the nausea and exhaustion are simply pushing me over the edge!

I had so much to do today but I had to sleep when Tyler was down. Unfortunately I didn't really sleep and don't feel any better! :(

My neck and back are so sore :( I'm super uncomfortable and just over it.

Add to this Tyler is cutting his incisors and molars and u have a very grumpy, whingy, screaming, non eating and non sleeping child! Agh! He is super naughty at the moment and when he gets told no or naughty he keeps pushing like it's a game. When I go and pull him away from the naughty thing he is doing he completely cracks it and screams the house down. Seriously child wtf? My head can't handle that decibel of screams right now. This goes on all day at the moment. At the shops he lasts about 10mins before he cracks it there too. I'm not sure if he can sense something is happening or that things are about to change or what but wow I wasn't expecting these tantrums until at least 2!

I have no one to help me out or just give me a break. B is working heaps which is great but it also means he is gone 7-7 most days. My mum isn't interested in spending more than an hour with him. She has her own more important life to attend too. I'm not even going to get started on that because I won't be able go stop.

B and I spoke briefly about the plan while I am on hospital. No one spends any time with Tyler or even knows how to look after him. No idea on routines or food or anything. With only 5 weeks to go I seriously can't be bothered forcing people to give a sH*t when clearly they aren't interested but it does stress me out as I will be in hospital with a new born and worried sick about Tyler.

I am so over carrying this extra weight! I just want to be able to change my diet and start exercising.

As I was driving home today I was thinking about things and I realised I am done. At this point in time I am happy with my 2 boys. I don't want any more kids. This may change is 4-5years but right now I am done. I want to get out there and start enjoying life with my boys.
I want to get this weight off, get fit again and get out there. I know it's because I am heavily pregnant but Most of the time I can't muster the energy to do anything at all let alone take Tyler to the park or the beach or the pool or anything :( I do realise this feeling won't last forever but I do feel like such a bad mum!

I found out a couple of weeks ago not sure if I mentioned it already but they do little nippers about 20mins from me. So excited as I have always wanted to get the kids into it.

On a different note had an appointment with the OB yesterday everything is great. Keeping the appointment fortnightly as it's all routine. Just twiddle our thumbs until bubba boy decides it's time to come!!

Well I need to muster the energy to do something! House looks like a bomb hit it.