Oops

So I find myself in a little bit of a predicament! Where to start? Obviously DH and I live apart but he visits Tyler daily. Tyler needs his dad in his life and although I am sad about what happened and it's hard to see him everyday I know I have to do the right thing by Tyler. So he came over on tuesday as per normal and gave Tyler is bath.

After Tyler was in bed we were sitting on the couch talking and watching the biggest loser. Well not really sure how it happened but one thing led to another and we DTD!

Now this doesn't bother me we both needed the company and we are still attracted to each other. I am not sure on the feelings we both just aren't thinking about it we simply need time out from that! This is simply just physical. It happened again last night.

Now here comes the oops i was looking at when i am heading to Darwin after my sisters bub is born. I am looking to head around the 28th. I was looking at my phone calendar for dates when I noticed that the 29th is the day AF is due. First thought bummer i will have AF while I am away!

2nd though omfg! We DTD the 2 days leading up to ovulation. I had EWCM (lots of it) on Tuesday but I didn't even trigger until I actually thought about it. This month was the first one i didn't have baby brain. i hadn't once thought about having another baby or have that want to be pregnant again. I felt like AF only just finished. But i guess the desire to DTD is always stronger around ovulation and perhaps why I gave into the lust feeling! Normally I wouldn't let myself give into that kind of thing.

So this now makes me in the 2ww. Ovulation was either yesterday or today and as my body is clockwork I have no doubt i did. I know there is only a 1/4 chance at falling pregnant every cycle and perhaps less at my age but in my history if there wasn't a problem (blocked tube from miscarriage) I fell pregnant 3 times the first month trying!

How do i feel about this. I am very doubtful I will fall pregnant! Not sure why but if I am I am excited. I am not sure how things will fair with DH and I, perhaps he will get help for his drug issue but having kids to different dads always played on my mind. I know it happens all the time but I wanted Tyler to have a full brother or sister.

I will be taking every day as it comes I will think about it when I get there and am in fact pregnant.

Testing day will be the 27th the day before I fly out to Darwin!