4 Months and progress

Well the little man is 4 months now :) and getting big! I am such a proud mumma :) He has been doing so much better since I started him on solids 2 weeks ago.  So much more settled, happier, and just generally content.  He giggles and talks so much more, rolls around and happy to stay on his own for longer periods. Hopefully it lasts for a while! Although I am expecting the teething to start soon soon so that should bring some new grizzliness.

This is him at 4 months

In other news DH and I have talked and we both agree we don't want to throw our marriage away.  We discussed things and put our feelings on the table in regards to absolutely everything.  Its talks like these were you realise how hard the last few years have been.  Loosing 2 babies then struggling to fall pregnant. DH starting his own business, issues with my family, my parents separation, money issues etc. So DH wanted me to move back home straight away but I want to take it slowly, I want to work through all the issues and deal with them all before we jump back into things. I don't want any of this coming up again.

The biggest thing for me that I need to deal with is moving on from the difficulty that comes with pretty much being pregnant or breast feeding for 2.5years. I haven't had any down time because I was always worried I might be pregnant or something I might eat could affect it.  Never had more than a couple of drinks, couldn't eat this or that, could do this or that. Its very exhausting and still now breast feeding it the same.  So I would get angry at DH because he doesn't have this, he gets to have a few drink, eat what he wants, go where he wants do what he wants. This isn't his fault, I made the decision to do what I did, and we now have a son and I just need to be happy again and enjoy him.  

Small steps at a time but we will get there :)

Little man is awake and Sophie has gotten boring so I better go get him. :)

I feel good times ahead.