I will be shattered. I keep thinking you have been through this for 8 months now another bfn wont hurt! But i know that wont be the case. Had my follow up appointment with the Dr yesterday. Had my stitches removed. He repeated that he was very pleased with how things went. He also mentioned that after a procedure like this our chances should be increase. Of course this caused me to get up hope some more! He also said that after 3 full cycles if we have no luck to go back for a reassessment and see where to from there. That takes us to the end of March. I guess I feel relieved that something will definitely be happening from there but it still feels so far away. At least we can start saving for the possibility of IUI or IVF. I am very optimistic that we will be pregnant again soon. I have to be.
Along with this renewed optimism has come the need for a baby again. I have been able to put it to the back of my mind and get on with life and its been good. But now that real need and urgency is back with full vengeance. I see babies or pregnant women and my heart just starts aching with that need
I spoke to my friend yesterday that was one week ahead of me when we both first fell pregnant. Her little man is crawling and pulling himself up now. That made me sad too. They grow so fast. My little girl would have been 6 months now. I know it wasn't meant to be and I am OK with that but sometimes I do think about what if? what if she had been fine?
I have decided to take Thurs and Friday off work so I only have 1 working day left!! YAYAYAYAYA
12days to go!!! TTC can be annoying at times. I am wishing the time away because I want my TWW to be over and hopefully entering an 8WW but at the same time its my holidays and I really don't want to wish them away. I don't get many!
well last 5-10mins of work better do something!
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