So I am feeling really apprehensive today its probably because I am extremely tried, ms is back and I still have that monster headache.
Thing is I have passed the 12week mark and I am not excited. I am too scared about Wednesday. I wish the scan was today. Wed feels so far away. I know peanuts heart rate is sitting at 165 which is perfect for now but i am so scared I wont see what everyone else is seeing. Everyone is saying they are seeing a little baby moving and turning and kicking, waving sucking thumb etc. I know peanut was growing perfect and there should be no reason why it still isn't but its being back that fear of that first scan i ever had. The excitement of seeing our little peanut for the first time.
I think its because I have passed that 12week mark. I am expecting things to be fine. I am excited to see how much peanut has developed but what if it hasn't? What if what I am hearing on the doppler isn't true? what if something is wrong? I will get crushed again.
Oh man I am tired. lol
I am not announcing it until after this scan. But it does feel like so long away and its only 1day 11 hours to go!
Oh man I hope I get better sleep tonight! Seriously can't function!
Berry
Tyler
Blake
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Saturday, February 26, 2011
OMG 12 Weeks
as the title says OMG 12 weeks! We actually made it. It honestly just feels so surreal.
I have been really sick today so perhaps thats lowered the excitement level from me. I woke up with more ms and my headache has been a real shocker. I can't seem to knock it
panadol just doesn't cut it. I used to suffer with migraines really bad until I found they were caused by Tannin in black tea and red wine. Haven't had a migraine for about 2 years. Since I have been pregnant this is about the 3rd time. Normally I can just sleep use ice packs or heat packs depending on where the headache is sitting and it all helps. Today not so much. Seems to just be getting worse and worse.
I think once I pass the scan on Wednesday this might actually start to feel real. I am excited that we have hit the 12week mark, just hurting with this headache!
I have been really sick today so perhaps thats lowered the excitement level from me. I woke up with more ms and my headache has been a real shocker. I can't seem to knock it
panadol just doesn't cut it. I used to suffer with migraines really bad until I found they were caused by Tannin in black tea and red wine. Haven't had a migraine for about 2 years. Since I have been pregnant this is about the 3rd time. Normally I can just sleep use ice packs or heat packs depending on where the headache is sitting and it all helps. Today not so much. Seems to just be getting worse and worse. I think once I pass the scan on Wednesday this might actually start to feel real. I am excited that we have hit the 12week mark, just hurting with this headache!
Friday, February 25, 2011
11w6d
Well while I wait for my ipod to charge so I have something to listen to while I mop and vaccum I thought I would do a bit of an update.
11w6d. Tomorrow is the big 12weeks! OMG could this actually be happening. It still feels so surreal. Even now after TTC for so long, 16months in the end I still get jealous when I see pregnancy announcement even though it will be me soon. I am waiting till after my scan on Wednesday but I am excited. Tested peanuts heart beat this morning still 165 so surely nothing can happen in the last day?
I have been thinking long and hard about the FB announcement. I know how much it hurts for people who have been TTC for a long time. I was thinking something along the lines of
"After a very long journey we are happy to announce that the stalk has finally decided to deliver our first little Cherub. ETA 11th Sept. Yep sorry Johnson's yet another birthday in September!!! We are so excited!"
That way people can see we weren't one of the lucky ones who just fell pregnant and if they too are struggling they might contact me and find support and hopefully inspiration that it too will happen for them one day.
I have no problem discussing our fertility issues if someone asks. I know it can be very taboo to talk about but I know it happens to so many women and I really don't think people should feel they have to be ashamed of it and keep it secret. If any one judges you for having problems or doesn't support you then they aren't truly friends.
Tomorrow I enter the 2nd trimester. I seriously never ever thought this day would come. I honestly can't believe it. I haven't been anywhere near the nursery in so long I went in there this morning and went wow this is now real!
The ms is still there a bit, don't throw up as much as what I was but I still just feel really sick and hung over all day. oh and the tiredness. thats hard work. I can't remember what if felt like to have energy!
So as of this afternoon I am finally going to start walking again. I have put on weight, I honestly don't care, the only the that made me not as sick was heavy carb meals so thats what I ate. But I want to stay healthy for this bub. Pre-eclampsia is in my family so now that the ms should start subsiding I want to make sure I eat really well and get in some light exercise every day. Bub deserves the best start to life I can give it so thats what I am going to do!
I want to also start pilates so that I can bounce back after the birth well. We can't afford for me to go to classes so I am just going to get a DVD and try to do it regularly.
I am actually excited now that I just might be having a baby. From tomorrow I can say I am having a baby! WOW
Well ipod is charged watch out house here I come!!!
11w6d. Tomorrow is the big 12weeks! OMG could this actually be happening. It still feels so surreal. Even now after TTC for so long, 16months in the end I still get jealous when I see pregnancy announcement even though it will be me soon. I am waiting till after my scan on Wednesday but I am excited. Tested peanuts heart beat this morning still 165 so surely nothing can happen in the last day?
I have been thinking long and hard about the FB announcement. I know how much it hurts for people who have been TTC for a long time. I was thinking something along the lines of
"After a very long journey we are happy to announce that the stalk has finally decided to deliver our first little Cherub. ETA 11th Sept. Yep sorry Johnson's yet another birthday in September!!! We are so excited!"
That way people can see we weren't one of the lucky ones who just fell pregnant and if they too are struggling they might contact me and find support and hopefully inspiration that it too will happen for them one day.
I have no problem discussing our fertility issues if someone asks. I know it can be very taboo to talk about but I know it happens to so many women and I really don't think people should feel they have to be ashamed of it and keep it secret. If any one judges you for having problems or doesn't support you then they aren't truly friends.
Tomorrow I enter the 2nd trimester. I seriously never ever thought this day would come. I honestly can't believe it. I haven't been anywhere near the nursery in so long I went in there this morning and went wow this is now real!
The ms is still there a bit, don't throw up as much as what I was but I still just feel really sick and hung over all day. oh and the tiredness. thats hard work. I can't remember what if felt like to have energy!
So as of this afternoon I am finally going to start walking again. I have put on weight, I honestly don't care, the only the that made me not as sick was heavy carb meals so thats what I ate. But I want to stay healthy for this bub. Pre-eclampsia is in my family so now that the ms should start subsiding I want to make sure I eat really well and get in some light exercise every day. Bub deserves the best start to life I can give it so thats what I am going to do!
I want to also start pilates so that I can bounce back after the birth well. We can't afford for me to go to classes so I am just going to get a DVD and try to do it regularly.
I am actually excited now that I just might be having a baby. From tomorrow I can say I am having a baby! WOW
Well ipod is charged watch out house here I come!!!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
belly pic
So its been a while since I have posted a belly pic. I placed it to the right again above the 4 week one. As you can see its very rounded but 99% of that would simply be bloat. But I can't hide it thats for sure! Definitely time for some new tops. I would love to say I am pushing my belly out but thats it I can't suck it in! Looks like a balloon that I need to pop hahahahahaha!!!
Also these are the booties I bought. Very cute hey.
Got peanuts heart beat straight away again this arvo. I love hearing it! Well thats it just wanted to update with a few pics :)
Also these are the booties I bought. Very cute hey.
Got peanuts heart beat straight away again this arvo. I love hearing it! Well thats it just wanted to update with a few pics :)
11w3d
Only 4 more days to go! and even more exciting is things are moving forward now. I had my NT bloods done this morning. It isn't much but its so exciting. Took over an hour as the place was busy but its OK. I was a little worried as I was so sick this morning. couldn't stop throwing up. But I ate something in the car on the way there and had some juice and I was all fine! :)
Found peanut on the Doppler in 2seconds flat last night. That was a nice relief. Still sitting at 165! Its scary to think that this might actually be happening!
Found peanut on the Doppler in 2seconds flat last night. That was a nice relief. Still sitting at 165! Its scary to think that this might actually be happening!
Monday, February 21, 2011
11w2d
Tiredness doesn't really explain it this morning. I went to bed early last night but today I am really really tired and completely exhausted. I am really shaky, I thew up this morning, my head hurts. To top it off its a busy day today! Why is it always the way? I just can't seem to function at all. my mind is working at about 30% of where it usually does and at about 10% of the speed! I feel utterly useless!
Having some funny pains this morning. I think its just bad gas lol but they are still there and I don't like any form of pain. Peanut has been hard to get on the doppler the last day or so. Thats worrying me a bit. it seems to be sitting low and deep. The heart beat when I finally get it is strong and still up around 165, but in my mind peanut should be getting bigger and easier to hear. To add to that i have been hearing some very funny gurgling sounds on the doppler last night and this morning. Probably this gas pains that I am feeling but all this new stuff in the past couple of days has my mind racing. Its been far too long since I have seen peanut. Yes I can hear a heart beat and its nice and strong and where it should be but I start thinking things like what if peanut is growing to size? what if its not forming properly? I still have 8 days before I get to see it again.
anyway i am rambling and struggling to make sense of stuff. I just have to get through the day!
Having some funny pains this morning. I think its just bad gas lol but they are still there and I don't like any form of pain. Peanut has been hard to get on the doppler the last day or so. Thats worrying me a bit. it seems to be sitting low and deep. The heart beat when I finally get it is strong and still up around 165, but in my mind peanut should be getting bigger and easier to hear. To add to that i have been hearing some very funny gurgling sounds on the doppler last night and this morning. Probably this gas pains that I am feeling but all this new stuff in the past couple of days has my mind racing. Its been far too long since I have seen peanut. Yes I can hear a heart beat and its nice and strong and where it should be but I start thinking things like what if peanut is growing to size? what if its not forming properly? I still have 8 days before I get to see it again.
anyway i am rambling and struggling to make sense of stuff. I just have to get through the day!
Sunday, February 20, 2011
11w1d
I am currently stuck at work due to some severe thunderstorms so I figured I might as well update :)
So we are 11w1d today. I honestly can't believe it. Its still so very surreal! 5d and a few hours to go. I really never thought this time would come. I am still very nervous that something could happen in this last week but I am getting a little bit excited! I bought my first little actual baby thing at shopping on Sunday. I bought some little baby booties. They are so cute. little yellow ones. I have bought bigger things but nothing specific before. That got me a little more excited.
I have started checking peanuts heart beat twice a day. I know there is absolutely nothing I can do if it stops and I can't hear it anymore but hearing it does put my pacing mind at ease. A little!
So I am definitely more bloated now. I know bubs is only two inches big so its not all bub but there is a noticeable change. I am not skinny these days by any means lol but I never normally put weight on my belly and its definitely rounder. I am waiting until after my scan next week before I go and buy some new clothes. The pants I have a fine but the tops are a little tighter and you can definitely notice the podgy belly lol. Lucky no one would be game enough to ask if I am pregnant! hahahahaha
1w 2d until I can announce it. We will do the ring around to the remaining family and friends first and then I will probably put it on facebook.
MS wise I threw up a couple of times on Saturday afternoon but mainly that has subsided and I just feel tired and hung over ALL the time. Headaches are still pretty bad but I don't think they will go away now.
Had a really really busy weekend. Had a baby shower on Saturday afternoon. That was OK. They served sandwiches and things but all had stuff on it pregnant women couldn't eat. Like ham or cold chicken. Stupid! Anyway spent all Sat morning baking a cake for my sisters 30th Birthday party. I will post some pictures of the Novelty cake I did. Not bad for my first attempt but I do have a long way to go hahaha! Saturday night was the actual cocktail party. It went really well. Wasn't as much because I couldn't drink but it was still good. I would rather be pregnant and not drink any day :)
Finally got to sleep around 1:30am, I was so exhausted so I actually spent 3/4 sunday sleeping. I just couldn't seem to wake up at all! Then this morning I woke up feeling like it was me that had gotten into all those cocktails lol!
Well thats enough babbling for another day. Bring on SUNDAY!!!!
So we are 11w1d today. I honestly can't believe it. Its still so very surreal! 5d and a few hours to go. I really never thought this time would come. I am still very nervous that something could happen in this last week but I am getting a little bit excited! I bought my first little actual baby thing at shopping on Sunday. I bought some little baby booties. They are so cute. little yellow ones. I have bought bigger things but nothing specific before. That got me a little more excited.
I have started checking peanuts heart beat twice a day. I know there is absolutely nothing I can do if it stops and I can't hear it anymore but hearing it does put my pacing mind at ease. A little!
So I am definitely more bloated now. I know bubs is only two inches big so its not all bub but there is a noticeable change. I am not skinny these days by any means lol but I never normally put weight on my belly and its definitely rounder. I am waiting until after my scan next week before I go and buy some new clothes. The pants I have a fine but the tops are a little tighter and you can definitely notice the podgy belly lol. Lucky no one would be game enough to ask if I am pregnant! hahahahaha
1w 2d until I can announce it. We will do the ring around to the remaining family and friends first and then I will probably put it on facebook.
MS wise I threw up a couple of times on Saturday afternoon but mainly that has subsided and I just feel tired and hung over ALL the time. Headaches are still pretty bad but I don't think they will go away now.
Had a really really busy weekend. Had a baby shower on Saturday afternoon. That was OK. They served sandwiches and things but all had stuff on it pregnant women couldn't eat. Like ham or cold chicken. Stupid! Anyway spent all Sat morning baking a cake for my sisters 30th Birthday party. I will post some pictures of the Novelty cake I did. Not bad for my first attempt but I do have a long way to go hahaha! Saturday night was the actual cocktail party. It went really well. Wasn't as much because I couldn't drink but it was still good. I would rather be pregnant and not drink any day :)
Finally got to sleep around 1:30am, I was so exhausted so I actually spent 3/4 sunday sleeping. I just couldn't seem to wake up at all! Then this morning I woke up feeling like it was me that had gotten into all those cocktails lol!
Well thats enough babbling for another day. Bring on SUNDAY!!!!
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