8 weeks

Well I have made it to 2/3 of the way through the first trimester!! YAY

I think bubba is going through a growth spurt at the moment.  Well I hope so.  lol. I hope it isn't my mind playing tricks. I started throwing up Friday night and I haven't really stopped.  Saturday I got a little bit of reprieve but the nausea was extreme.  I am having trouble driving or focusing on anything for any length of time cause I am so tired.  The spewing also makes me really shaky.  Its all good though, hopefully means peanut is growing real strong.  May have to get a script of Maxolon from Dr A on Wednesday when I go for my scan.  Its OK to be out of it and constantly throwing up while at home, its a little hard at work.  Friday at work was by far the hardest day I have had.  I was seconds away from throwing up in the bin next to my desk and then lying on the floor. lol!

Its 2:30pm and I have finally been able to keep down something.  I just had a salad roll. although I did only just finished it about 5mins ago but I do feel stronger than I did this morning.  Had to go grocery shopping before lol That was an experience.  I must have looked like a complete zombie!

well this has taken me long enough to write, I am going to send a few emails and have a nap. :)

7w4d

well I have been a little quiet in the blogging states at the moment.  I am just nervous trying to get through everyday.  I have actually had 3 very good days.  In the way I mean very good is hardly any symptoms at all!!!  This did make me very nervous, I had crampy pains but I am starting to think its growing pains. They aren't uterus pains but I would prefer no cramping at all! Its mainly high on the left and right and really pully.  Oh and the gas pain! Definitely DH's child hahahaha!!!

I have been talking to some pregnant friends and apparently things go in waves of about 3 days.  My body proved this this morning as I can't stop throwing up.  All that saved up spewing from the past 3 days is coming out today! I can't take time off work so sea bands are on and ginger tea is out! Hopefully my tummy settles soon because I have to spend most of my day in the lab and stripping off gloves and a lab coat and washing hands whilst trying to stop yourself throwing up well hopefully it doesn't prove too difficult!

Its all good though its a relief to have it back! Nearly 8 weeks and only 5 days until my scan! DH turned 30 yesterday! wow we are getting old lol!

Tiredness is back with a vengeance today too and the baby brain.  Not functioning well at all!!!!  I would be happy for this to keep up for the next 4 weeks!!!

I bought a doppler the other day.  I did my research and because it only outputs 3mHz it isn't harmful to the baby at all.  I tried it but I know its too early to pick anything up yet.  They say maybe from about 8 weeks :) so I will give it another go on Sunday and then only weekly from there.  I have my scan next Wednesday anyway so seeing peanut hopefully healthy strong and growing will keep my racing mind happy for a week or so lol!

Well best get started on the work for the day! TGIF!!!!!

7w1d

Right this blog entry is going to be hard to get out.

I have been so very very unwell today.  I can't get my brain to function at all!  I woke up about 5:15 and I was absolutely starving.  I knew then it wasn't good.  I fell back to sleep and my alarm woke me at 5:45.  rolled out of bed and the vomiting started.  I had so much trouble getting ready for work! I threw up about 10 times before I left the house mainly just bile which is so gross!  Then I managed to eat some toast with Vegemite on the way to work.  Was OK for the hour drive then walking to the office which takes about 10mins was so hard.  Made it to the toilet here and thew up again. I have had a few more times through out the day and now I just feel nauseous.  I am drinking my Ginger tea and have my sea bands on but today its just no good.  I feel completely off.  I am so exhausted to, I just want to put my head down on my desk.

Add on top of that these dull aches I am having.  I think its just bowel stuff again but still that is one thing I don't like.  I can handle the throwing up and the headaches but not the bowel cramps.  They worry me, its too close to uterus cramps, most of the time I worry thats what it is.  I am undie watch today although nothing but Creamy CM my head just isn't in the right place to cope with any of it.

I would go home and sleep but due to the floods this is my 3rd day back and we have Wednesday off for Aust Day. pfft so tired.

I think I pushed myself too hard over the weekend too.  Friday night I didn't get to bed till after midnight as I had to pick my sister up from the airport.  I was then up at 6am to start preparing for DH's 30th Birthday BBQ that afternoon.  Was flat out all day, BBQ was great, food was fantastic and everyone loved the birthday cake. I started throwing up at about 11pm and I eventually got to bed at 11:30 but didn't sleep well as there were still some of DH's mates left.  DH came to bed at 3:30am.  At 6am we were both awake and couldn't sleep.  We chatted for about an hour before we decided to get  up and clean up.  My stomach was off so I was off throwing up but I had organised breakfast with my sister and mum.  I managed to go out but couldn't eat much.

I went and finally bought a body pillow. OMG best invention in the WORLD! I slept like a log last night. They are so very comfy.  just reminds me of the movie the back up plan.  So funny! hahahaha

Anyway finally got home, DH moved one of our spare mattress into the lounge room under the air con and we watched the cricket and tennis and snoozed for the afternoon.

Only a few hours left for today I just hope I can push through! Just feeling really guilty because I am not being very productive here at all!  I am looking forward to going part time in May/June depending on how much holiday I actually have up.

I can't believe my scan is next Wednesday.  Looking forward to it but definitely really nervous.

Pictures and a Video

So Its a little grainy as Dr A's ultrasound machine is a small in office one, but you can see peanut and the nice strong heart beat! YAY!

This is the zoomed out video

This is our little peanut so perfect.  I hope it stays that way!

Peanut is PERFECT!

I can't express the relief.  Peanut is perfect.  Measuring exactly to date and a really nice strong heart beat at 130bpm and at 6weeks thats excellent! YAY  I don't have any download yet so pics will have to wait :)

On cloud 9 today I really hope everything keeps going so well :)

D-Day

6w3d! The day our little girl died.  very nervous today, I am hoping to get hit with the ms again.

Yesterday I had a very interesting day.  I have a new symptom. Dizziness!!

To start the day I headed down the gold coast to pickup a baby capsule which I grabbed on ebay for $20 OMG. the guy was really nice and threw in a portable cot.  They aren't new but they are in great condition and a bargain pick up.  So anyway driving back from there I started to feel really sick! Was determined not to spew in the car.  I was going to go straight home but I had set some plans out and I want to get them done.  Being down and out from MS over the past few days I needed to get some stuff done before I go back to work tomorrow.

So I stopped off at the shop to pick up stuff for the house and for DH's 30th.  Half way walking around woolies I started to feel REALLY unwell and really light headed.  I couldn't concentrate and thought OMG I am either going to spew or pass out.

I ran around the shop and grabbed what I could really quickly.  Kept it together amazingly till I got home.  I have never felt so ill.  So after a spew I made myself something to eat and went for a sleep in the aircon.  This little peanut is definitely taking it out of me.  Which makes me happy of course. But I couldn't wake up from that nap. Normally I feel groggy after an afternoon nap but this was shocking.  It was like I had drunk 4 bottles of Vodka.

Anyway DH came home and didn't have keys so I jumped up to let him in.  wow again came inches from passing out!

I am hoping this is all a good sign and peanut is growing strong.  I have come to some peace lately when I realised that if anything happens I can't stop it and I will deal with it if it happens.  Of course I am still nervous but it makes getting through each day a little easier.

4days 6 hours to go until my scan!!!

Nervous Nelly

Well my nerves definitely haven't settle down any over the past 24hours.  Other than being EXTREMELY tired yesterday I didn't really have much else going on. My bbs were only slightly tender, by the afternoon I had stopped throwing up.  This lack of symptoms started to get me worried.  Then to make it worse I started to get cramps.  They didn't feel like AF cramps but I was constantly questioning it in my head.  I honestly felt like I just had really bad gas.  Anyway before I went to bed I decided to take a laxative. Needless to say I feel heaps better in the stomach department this morning.  I still have the normally stretchy type cramps but that is it.

Anyway I woke up this morning feeling really good.  Therein lies the problem.  I don't want to feel good I want to feel sick so I know peanut is OK.  I got up I felt awake and energised I had some water felt hungry, had a green tea felt OK a little queezy but nothing much. I had a shower and started to feel a little off in the shower.

Decided I was probably just hungry so I made some toast with Banana on it. Yeah never knew swallowing could be so hard.  Every bite was so hard to get down, the more I ate the sicker I felt. YAY! lol I haven't thrown up but definitely nauseous.  Oh and something that is really making my gag and actually made me spew yesterday, dog biscuits.  I ate one as a kid so when ever I think about it I can always imagine that taste. Its gross btw. but listening to the cat eat her breakfast yesterday reminded me of this taste and that was it I couldn't hold it in.  Today my stomach seems stronger but definitely sick.

This has relieved me a bit but I just really need to see peanut.  Make sure its OK.  I know I need to have faith and if something does happen I can't do anything to stop it so worrying is achieving absolutely nothing!!! But I can't help it. 7 days to go!

I have been out of bed today for about an hour and a half, getting used to this not working thing.  but already I am so tired I could just lie down and go back to sleep. zzZZZzzZZzzZZ

Well should probably try and make the best of the last 3 days off before work reopens.