Well my nerves definitely haven't settle down any over the past 24hours. Other than being EXTREMELY tired yesterday I didn't really have much else going on. My bbs were only slightly tender, by the afternoon I had stopped throwing up. This lack of symptoms started to get me worried. Then to make it worse I started to get cramps. They didn't feel like AF cramps but I was constantly questioning it in my head. I honestly felt like I just had really bad gas. Anyway before I went to bed I decided to take a laxative. Needless to say I feel heaps better in the stomach department this morning. I still have the normally stretchy type cramps but that is it.
Anyway I woke up this morning feeling really good. Therein lies the problem. I don't want to feel good I want to feel sick so I know peanut is OK. I got up I felt awake and energised I had some water felt hungry, had a green tea felt OK a little queezy but nothing much. I had a shower and started to feel a little off in the shower.
Decided I was probably just hungry so I made some toast with Banana on it. Yeah never knew swallowing could be so hard. Every bite was so hard to get down, the more I ate the sicker I felt. YAY! lol I haven't thrown up but definitely nauseous. Oh and something that is really making my gag and actually made me spew yesterday, dog biscuits. I ate one as a kid so when ever I think about it I can always imagine that taste. Its gross btw. but listening to the cat eat her breakfast yesterday reminded me of this taste and that was it I couldn't hold it in. Today my stomach seems stronger but definitely sick.
This has relieved me a bit but I just really need to see peanut. Make sure its OK. I know I need to have faith and if something does happen I can't do anything to stop it so worrying is achieving absolutely nothing!!! But I can't help it. 7 days to go!
I have been out of bed today for about an hour and a half, getting used to this not working thing. but already I am so tired I could just lie down and go back to sleep. zzZZZzzZZzzZZ
Well should probably try and make the best of the last 3 days off before work reopens.
Berry
Tyler
Blake
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Saturday, January 15, 2011
6weeks
So I have made it to the half way point of the 1st trimester. Only 6 more weeks until safety. But that is so far away.
Making me even more nervous is the reminder of how fast this can be taken away. A girl I used to know has had a horrible journey to finally fall pregnant with IVF. 7w3d down the track she might be loosing her precious little bubble. My heart is truly breaking for her. She doesn't deserve this. I really hope a miracle happens for her, if there was a need for one its now!
It reminds me how one day you think everything is fine and the next it all comes crashing down.
I am really sick this time and everyone keeps saying thats usually a good sign that bubba is growing strong. But I am still so scared and nervous. I keep wondering if I am imagining all these things. My bbs aren't sore today only a little tender. The nipples are still painful but that drop in symptom gets me so worried. In true form I am already throwing up this morning so thats reassuring but I wonder can it be in my head? Normally I never throw up. Now I can't stop it. Surely that means its real??
Having a baby isn't supposed to be so hard and stressful.
Please little peanut stay strong and healthy. 1week and 1 day till I get to see you. I am really hoping to see a nice strong heart beat and good measurements. I don't know what I would do if it wasn't. I need to keep positive. I do still feel like everything is going well. I really do hope I am right!
Making me even more nervous is the reminder of how fast this can be taken away. A girl I used to know has had a horrible journey to finally fall pregnant with IVF. 7w3d down the track she might be loosing her precious little bubble. My heart is truly breaking for her. She doesn't deserve this. I really hope a miracle happens for her, if there was a need for one its now!
It reminds me how one day you think everything is fine and the next it all comes crashing down.
I am really sick this time and everyone keeps saying thats usually a good sign that bubba is growing strong. But I am still so scared and nervous. I keep wondering if I am imagining all these things. My bbs aren't sore today only a little tender. The nipples are still painful but that drop in symptom gets me so worried. In true form I am already throwing up this morning so thats reassuring but I wonder can it be in my head? Normally I never throw up. Now I can't stop it. Surely that means its real??
Having a baby isn't supposed to be so hard and stressful.
Please little peanut stay strong and healthy. 1week and 1 day till I get to see you. I am really hoping to see a nice strong heart beat and good measurements. I don't know what I would do if it wasn't. I need to keep positive. I do still feel like everything is going well. I really do hope I am right!
Friday, January 14, 2011
Scariest moment yet
First off me and Food really don't like each other. I can't keep it down 
. but it does tell me peanut is definitely OK. I have some ginger drink here that seems to be calming my tummy down a little bit, must go out and get some more today! I am so very grateful for the ms but I honestly never thought I would be hit with it so bad. I am so ill all day! lol I am just lucky that my work is closed until next Thursday, wouldn't be able to cover this sickness up at work.
TMI Alert
So last night I definitely had the scariest moment. I have had the worst constipation over the last few days. Yesterday not only was the ms there all day with throwing up multiple times my stomach was in agony from the constipation. I have been taking metamucil every day and drinking heaps of water but with peeing every 30mins or more some times more it wasn't helping. So last night I went to the toilet and when I wiped I saw a little bit of blood. I just wanted to cry. I was trying so hard to hold it back. Even though my mucus had been creamy all day seeing this blood devastated me. I know bleeding in early pregnancy can be completely normal and it was practically nothing, I would have to go to the hospital for an Anti D injection in light of me being A- and DH being B+. Anyway I was on undie watch for the next few hours. The normal creamy CM was there with no sign of blood what so ever, not even the little tinge or anything. Anyway in the back of my mind I was thinking it might have been from the constipation but I was thinking worst case scenario in case it happened.
Anyway after a restless night and my normal 5 trips to the toilet and no blood I woke up this morning and went to the toilet again. Still constipated a bit but it STUNG like hell. So definitely think thats where the blood came from. lol
So I have started some natural remedies to try and reduce the constipation as it was definitely making me more sick yesterday.
Bbs are still sore, ms is definitely there, heart burn, no cramps which is reassuring :) So all seems to be going well. Stupid constipation! My intuition is telling me peanut is perfectly fine and my intuition is normally completely spot on!
Well its raining again here today, hopefully it doesn't last long. Have DH's 30th BBQ next weekend and I wanted to get out and clean up the back entertainment area.
. but it does tell me peanut is definitely OK. I have some ginger drink here that seems to be calming my tummy down a little bit, must go out and get some more today! I am so very grateful for the ms but I honestly never thought I would be hit with it so bad. I am so ill all day! lol I am just lucky that my work is closed until next Thursday, wouldn't be able to cover this sickness up at work. TMI Alert
So last night I definitely had the scariest moment. I have had the worst constipation over the last few days. Yesterday not only was the ms there all day with throwing up multiple times my stomach was in agony from the constipation. I have been taking metamucil every day and drinking heaps of water but with peeing every 30mins or more some times more it wasn't helping. So last night I went to the toilet and when I wiped I saw a little bit of blood. I just wanted to cry. I was trying so hard to hold it back. Even though my mucus had been creamy all day seeing this blood devastated me. I know bleeding in early pregnancy can be completely normal and it was practically nothing, I would have to go to the hospital for an Anti D injection in light of me being A- and DH being B+. Anyway I was on undie watch for the next few hours. The normal creamy CM was there with no sign of blood what so ever, not even the little tinge or anything. Anyway in the back of my mind I was thinking it might have been from the constipation but I was thinking worst case scenario in case it happened.
Anyway after a restless night and my normal 5 trips to the toilet and no blood I woke up this morning and went to the toilet again. Still constipated a bit but it STUNG like hell. So definitely think thats where the blood came from. lol
So I have started some natural remedies to try and reduce the constipation as it was definitely making me more sick yesterday.
Bbs are still sore, ms is definitely there, heart burn, no cramps which is reassuring :) So all seems to be going well. Stupid constipation! My intuition is telling me peanut is perfectly fine and my intuition is normally completely spot on!
Thursday, January 13, 2011
hCG
I just got my results back and peanut is growing super.
5w2d - 5850
5w4d - 9660
yay its doubling!!! So happy with those results. Now the count down to the first scan. 10 days to go!!!
Other symptoms wise bbs are sore again, and the constipation has set in. and I have a new symptom. TMI warning. OK vivid dreams started about 5days ago. But they have changed. I am so horny all the time! and my dreams are about it, constantly. its like its an urge I can't satisfy. DH is loving it but it really wired. I have never experienced this before. They say if its a boy the testosterone kicks in at about 6 weeks so maybe and that might explain it. or just all the extra blood in the area. lol have to laugh about it though
5w2d - 5850
5w4d - 9660
yay its doubling!!! So happy with those results. Now the count down to the first scan. 10 days to go!!!
Other symptoms wise bbs are sore again, and the constipation has set in. and I have a new symptom. TMI warning. OK vivid dreams started about 5days ago. But they have changed. I am so horny all the time! and my dreams are about it, constantly. its like its an urge I can't satisfy. DH is loving it but it really wired. I have never experienced this before. They say if its a boy the testosterone kicks in at about 6 weeks so maybe and that might explain it. or just all the extra blood in the area. lol have to laugh about it though
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
5w4d
Its been a few days I have been trying to lend a hand where I can to the people affected by this flood. My heart, thoughts and prayers go out to all the families who have lost loved ones and lost all there possessions. I hope the worst is over and its wonderful how everyone is really getting in there and helping. Truly amazing people out there.
I was evacuated from work at Lunch time on Tuesday and I haven't been able to return. I live on the east side of Brisbane and we haven't been affected here at all, but I work at the university of QLD on the other side of the city. Not only could I not get to work but the Uni was badly flooded as well. It was shut down completely and the 1st level of my 7 story building was flooded. I am so thankful to the uni who had staff on site which moved some very valuable equipment and stock from that first level up to the 7th level. We had a cryostorage tank with over a million dollars worth of stock and about 30 years of work. It would have been devastating to loose that. But in context we would have recovered and I am just so very grateful no one here in Brisbane has lost their life.
Peanut seems to be growing very strong. I had my first this morning
. I didn't have this in the first pregnancy and this tells me peanut is doing really well. I had bloods done on Tuesday morning and again this morning but with all the roads cut I will have to wait a while for those results. Its OK though I have a feeling they will come back fine and I would never want anyone to risk their life for something so trivial in comparison.
In terms of other symptoms. The heart burn is bad today but I think thats an extension of the ms. It hasn't finished with me but I am so very happy to have this ms. My bbs seem to be going up and down the nipples have remained very painful but the bbs themselves go from extremely tender to not much at all. Bad headaches and tiredness is starting to set in too. I do feel like everything is traveling really well. I still pray every day that my little peanut makes it!
Oh and I did another hpt yesterday lol can't help myself. OH yeah nice nice dark line. The test line has almost taken all the colour in the test and the control line is so light hehe
nearly 6 weeks YAY!
I was evacuated from work at Lunch time on Tuesday and I haven't been able to return. I live on the east side of Brisbane and we haven't been affected here at all, but I work at the university of QLD on the other side of the city. Not only could I not get to work but the Uni was badly flooded as well. It was shut down completely and the 1st level of my 7 story building was flooded. I am so thankful to the uni who had staff on site which moved some very valuable equipment and stock from that first level up to the 7th level. We had a cryostorage tank with over a million dollars worth of stock and about 30 years of work. It would have been devastating to loose that. But in context we would have recovered and I am just so very grateful no one here in Brisbane has lost their life.
Peanut seems to be growing very strong. I had my first
this morning. I didn't have this in the first pregnancy and this tells me peanut is doing really well. I had bloods done on Tuesday morning and again this morning but with all the roads cut I will have to wait a while for those results. Its OK though I have a feeling they will come back fine and I would never want anyone to risk their life for something so trivial in comparison. In terms of other symptoms. The heart burn is bad today but I think thats an extension of the ms. It hasn't finished with me but I am so very happy to have this ms. My bbs seem to be going up and down the nipples have remained very painful but the bbs themselves go from extremely tender to not much at all. Bad headaches and tiredness is starting to set in too. I do feel like everything is traveling really well. I still pray every day that my little peanut makes it!
Oh and I did another hpt yesterday lol can't help myself. OH yeah nice nice dark line. The test line has almost taken all the colour in the test and the control line is so light hehe
nearly 6 weeks YAY!
Sunday, January 9, 2011
5w1d
Unfortunately its Monday again. Its so hard to get up at 5:30am especially when its raining and perfect sleep in weather!!!
Well I have made it to 5w1d. My worry yesterday was short lived. By yesterday afternoon my bbs were really sore again!
they are really sore again this morning and the m/s has kicked in a little. Heart burn still really bad! all of this can get a million times worse and the happier I will be. I went shopping for some new bras yesterday. I went from a B to a C in my first short pregnancy and already I am up to a D. OMG! but there were maternity bras on sale so I just grabbed a few of those. I am guessing they will go down after the pregnancy so I can just wear my old bras again.
Tried to ring the Dr to make an appointment. There was no answer so they might not be back from Holidays yet. Will try again later, there was no answer machine saying they weren't open so that was a bit weird.
Well best do some work!
Well I have made it to 5w1d. My worry yesterday was short lived. By yesterday afternoon my bbs were really sore again!
they are really sore again this morning and the m/s has kicked in a little. Heart burn still really bad! all of this can get a million times worse and the happier I will be. I went shopping for some new bras yesterday. I went from a B to a C in my first short pregnancy and already I am up to a D. OMG! but there were maternity bras on sale so I just grabbed a few of those. I am guessing they will go down after the pregnancy so I can just wear my old bras again.
Tried to ring the Dr to make an appointment. There was no answer so they might not be back from Holidays yet. Will try again later, there was no answer machine saying they weren't open so that was a bit weird.
Well best do some work!
Saturday, January 8, 2011
5 WEEKS! YAY
Another week has passed although extremely slowly!
Well the nerves are there again today. TMI alert! I had very bad Diarrhea last night, was horrible. I don't think it was a sickness or anything, maybe my body didn't like the cheese I ate yesterday or the Thai BBQ we had for dinner, but either way it scared me. I remember getting it last time around when the baby died! :( My bbs are still sore today but again its a little less :( I just wish they would keep hurting!
But I did the clear blue digital this morning.
Which was perfect! 2-3 weeks since conception which equates to about 4-5weeks pregnant! YAY!
Take each day as it comes. Again I feel like bub is fine so lets just hope! :) I keep trying to remind myself the odds are in my favor. But it isn't really helping!
Well the nerves are there again today. TMI alert! I had very bad Diarrhea last night, was horrible. I don't think it was a sickness or anything, maybe my body didn't like the cheese I ate yesterday or the Thai BBQ we had for dinner, but either way it scared me. I remember getting it last time around when the baby died! :( My bbs are still sore today but again its a little less :( I just wish they would keep hurting!
But I did the clear blue digital this morning.
Take each day as it comes. Again I feel like bub is fine so lets just hope! :) I keep trying to remind myself the odds are in my favor. But it isn't really helping!
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