Gender revealed

So the news is in we are having another gorgeous little boy :)
I was upset at first not because its a boy but because I'm sad I won't have a daughter. I came to terms with it really quick though and I'm just so happy he is healthy. I'm so looking forward to meeting him in march. I wonder what he will look like having 2 complete opposites in Tyler as Blake. I know how lucky we are to be able to fall pregnant so easily. What is meant to be is :) if that's all boys as long as they are healthy then I am happy :)

My stupid mind won't stop churning now. I was set on 3 but not I'm not sure. Not for the wanting a girl now I know if we go for 4 it will be another boy it more that 3 is an uneven number that bothers me. 2 boys and a girl wouldn't have been so bad but 3 boys I can see so many 2 against one fights.
Financially at this point 4 would never be an option as we would need another car.

I need to return to work and still want to achieve those things on my list in the next few years. I have decided to get the implant once I stop bfing. I was thinking then we reassess and see if we want another. If we do not B then get the ship.
The gap would bother me having the first 3 so close then a 4 year gap but unless I win the lotto there is no other option.

At this point I certainly do not see it viable but I would still like to leave our options open. Problem with that is I don't really want to store baby still for 4 years. If we didn't have to buy a new car we could just have another close 4 boys makes it so much cheaper as until they are old enough hand me downs are not a problem.

Maybe I should try entering the lotto hahaha