Life can be utterly horrible and devastating

Yesterday was a very emotional and draining day.
I may have mentioned about 3weeks ago that one of the bubs in our September 2011 group was sick. He had been diagnosed with a fatal lung condition. Well 4pm on Thursday he passed away. His mum and dad had been told he will eventually but there had been hope with medication and things. He had been home for the week. Sadly on Thursday he couldn't keep fighting :( It just feels so quick and sudden and just horrible.

His mum said they were out in the car and he just wouldn't settle. Her DH had to stop at the mechanic so she took him out of this car seat and held him and settled him down. Her DH got back to the car and the 3 of them were sitting there as her little guys breaths just slowed down and stopped. :( they rushed him to the hospital which was 2 mins away but she felt in her heart resuscitating him was the wrong thing to do and they asked them to stop :( My god how do u make that decision? Nothing in the world could be harder.

I simply just can't stop the tears. It breaks my heart over and over again thinking about the pain and grief this family is going through.

I held Tyler so close yesterday. This little man had been in the world only as long as Tyler I couldn't bear to imagine life without him.

A said she is really struggling with knowing what to do. Her whole life has been CJ for the past 12months. What is she meant to do if she isn't a mummy anymore :(

God it's just gut wrenching. :(

The funeral is on Monday but we have decided not to go. As we are her mums group and all have kids CJ's age we thought the memories would be too much so we have all decided to go to a beach down the gold coast and write some messages in the sand, let some balloons go and also perhaps sends some messages out into the ocean. We will take some photos and put them into a memory book for A so that one day perhaps when she is strong enough she can look at it and know we were sending our prayers and love.

It brings home how precious life is and how important it is to cherish it and love the important people in ur life and to show them that love everyday.

A took CJ to hospital 3 weeks ago with croup and now he is gone.