Did anyone see that freight train?

31w5d

Seriously did anyone see it? It seems to have plowed straight into me and then reversed over me a few times.  :( I haven't been sick in years so its not something I am used to. Even the morning sickness from the first trimester was yep throw up move on. Some days I felt unwell and headache etc but this is completely new.  I have a cold, didn't think much of it but its getting worse and worse by the day. Well I think its the cold.

I feel so utterly exhausted. I am up at about 7am every morning, the poor fur babies are hungry and just want food! I do my checking and responding of emails but by 9/10am I am ready for bed again. I usually just push though and I lasted until 1pm today when I just could have lied down on any floor and gone to sleep. I simply just couldn't function. So off to bed I went, its now 4pm and I have just woken up.  Unfortunately I still feel tired and really sick! :( The nausea is constant for me, I have started taking maxalon again. I constantly feel starving yet can't eat because I throw it up or it makes me feel even sicker.

I don't know if all this is perhaps from peanut going through another growth spurt, but seriously I just want to stay in bed all day. :( and I hate staying in bed all day, mentally I just can't cope with this. I need to always be doing something!

In saying all that it isn't me and I hate it.  I hate feeling sorry for myself. I get sick I fight harder and push through it.  This time I can't seem to do that, the more I fight the sicker I feel. I feel so guilty because even though I cleaned the at the beginning of the week, I am home every day now it should be clean and tidy every day but its not. I struggle to stand in the kitchen long enough to cook dinner. Being Friday although I have food in the fridge its going to be takeaway, I don't like takeaway but my body doesn't want to cook :(

I have been so blessed with this little munchkin and have sailed through the pregnancy to date so I wasn't really expecting this.  I can handle being tired, I can handle headaches even throwing up, but what ever this is I simply just can't function. I will have to talk to Dr A about it on Wednesday, my blood pressure was up again today from its normal 117/58 to 130/68.  Diastolic is fine but the systolic is a bit high. I can still feel peanut working up a storm in there though so it can't be affecting it too much.

enough of a whinge today! hopefully I will start to feel a bit better soon! If not 8 more weeks to go!!