31weeks

Since our scan on Friday I haven't been able to stop looking at little peanuts pics.  I really can't wait to meet this little munchkin now and for some strange reason today I am so scared all at the same time.  I know so much can still go wrong at this point and the thought of loosing this little one scares the hell out of me.  If I don't feel it move for half and hour or so I get worried!

I know two of the biggest causes of still birth are pre-eclampsia and untreated gestational diabetes.  Both of which I don't have. but this isn't helping stop my worry.  I know what its little face looks like, its nose, its mouth its fingers and toes. I just want the next 9 week to hurry up!

With still 9 weeks to go it can't possibly be engaging yet but its definitely really low down in my pelvis.  It is really uncomfortable to walk, a really really heavy downward pressure. I don't mind if it comes early though but not for another 5 weeks.  I want to make it to full term at least!

Probably should go have a nap, have had a head cold for about a week now just makes me tired throughout the day probably what is making more emotional.  I am sure peanut will be fine just that over protective mum instinct kicking in!