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On the family front bubba 3 is giving me a little bit of grief. Not sure what it is can't put my finger on it.
Ok so I haven't let things out on here or a while. I wonder what is the point? Put it out there a few people in the world might read it, it gets it off my chest but it fixes nothing. This crap is like déjà vu and my head is about ready to explode.
So the problem with bub 3 is my blood pressure is going up. I can feel it in my face. It's like a knot builds in my gut an my BP starts rising my face starts swelling and bam I feel like crap. Why is my BP rising? Stress! Of course!
So B ceased his business about 3 1/2 months ago now. Said he physically couldn't do it anymore. Fine. U can't push ur body to do something it physically can't. I suggested he give anti depressants a go because the tiredness he is always feeling isn't normal. He was cleared of any medical issues. He tried them for about a month. Said they just made him feel dazed. Again fine can't force him.
About the same time he stopped his business I found out he had gone on a gambling binge. Ended up being about $3.5k yay! Me trying to be understanding and supporting didn't lose it I swollowed the stress and asked him to see a councillor. Which he did again for about a month. In that month he took up drinking every day. Eventually I said we can't afford u to drink every day. He didn't listen until I said I wanted to join a gym which was $7.50 a week plus about $20 for crèche. He flat out said no we can't afford it. I made the comparison to the $50 a week he spends on alcohol so he stopped. Now instread he has taken op smoking pot again. wtf! I can't win.
So in this time he hasn't worked. He has gone for 2 job interviews. He has applied for a few more but the job market is really tough and he is putting in a real half arsed effort. He is also going fishing at least once a week for at least 12hours, he stays up late playing is video games and sleeps in until atleast 8am every day.
As u can imagine I am or basically have lost all patience. Then today we get a bill in the mail an outstandig debt I knew we had for a tax bill from his business as his gambling splurge was out of that money and he had to pay PAYG on it. Basically in a nut shell it says pay immediately or it goes to the debt collector.
Omfg seriously? He was supposed to ring say he couldn't pay right now what can we put in place? Obviously he hasn't! If it goes to the debt collector there goes any credit rating we had and any chance of ever buying a house again.
On the money we get we are $400 a fn short on our bills so my yes my credit card is creeping up.
I feel like I am losing my mind. A 32yo 16yo! I've given up saying anything especially now he is smoking again as he is completely irrational. I feel like I want to move out again. That's not fair on the boys though they love both of us and I couldn't tear that up right now. Wtf am I supposed to do? Some days I am ok with ignoring it other like today it does my head in. I want to yell and scream at him until he realises what is actually going on. I just don't know how he can't see it. What happened in his up bringing that made him void to any responsibility?
Ok head wants to exploid can't keep making myself more annoyed.
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