Sinking in

It's kinda like i've just figured out I am having a baby lol. With Tyler it didn't sink in until after he was born, but now I know bubba is a little man it's actually real I am having a baby. A gorgeous little baby boy :)

I am so excited I am doing so much planning already lol. I can't wait to move in the next 6 weeks so I can start setting up for his arrival. Get out all Tyler's new born stuff wash it and put it into the cupboard.

I have thought of a name and I do really like it. I don't want to get fixed on a name I know it might change when he is born but I do really like it. Will have to discuss it with B.

I have also been thinking ahead for the next 18months really, I am planning a big family holiday in Nov next year. Seeing as for my 30th this year I will be very heavily pregnant I am putting it on hold till next year :) there is an awesome kids resort on the gold coast which I am going to head to. I don't really like the gold coast but it is a fantastic place for the kids. Tyler will be just over 2 and bubba will be nearly 1 so a great age. I can also take them to the beach and maybe dreamworld or something too.

As this is a beach trip and the resort has an enormous water park for the kids I have set my weight loss goal. I want to be 60-65kg by then. It is a decent about of weight to loose but it's nearly 12 months and I know it will be hard with 2 kids but I am determined. I want to get out There and have fun with the boys I don't want to spend my time being self conscious I want be in the moment with them enjoying them. :) oh and not hate having any photos taken!

Poor Tyler is sick and tired of being inside. He is always either at the front or back door wanting to get out. My back yard is no good for kids, it's a mess and this is the main reason I am moving but today i decided to take him out onto the front lawn. I kept having to bring him back away from the road, I live in a quiet dead end street so there were no cars but still didn't like him near the road. He had a ball. Sticks and flowers and grass. So tomorrow I have decided to take out for breaky and then to the park for a play. :) i got him some outdoor toys for his birthday and christmas so I now can't wait to give them too him.

I have come to terms with never having a daughter. I am so very lucky to be blessed with 2 kids. I know there are some couples out there still trying for just 1. I was blessed with this little man, he came to us so easily and I hope that he is healthy. That's all that matters. I actually can't believe how excited i am about this little man, I can't believe i have to wait 21weeks to meet him. In saying that i definitely want him to cook until his due date. :)