very contented!!

Its amazing how things change.  I was on bubhub this morning looking through my normal threads thinking hmmm i don't really belong in any of these any more. for 2 years i have spent so much time in there but now other than following a few girls ttc or pregnancy journey i am not ttc or pregnant! the realisation was a very weird feeling!

I am very contented though. even through the sleepless nights, the crying from being unsettled etc I am so happy.  this little man is my world!!

Tyler is doing OK, he is very windy all the time poor bugger.  He only seems bothered every now and again. he struggles on his back so i propped his bed up and he slept fine. I figured this out last night when i couldn't get him to settle, took him out to dh who was watching tv and he put him on his lap on a pillow and he settled straight away.  I then noticed the pillow had his head up higher.  seems to have worked for now.

I am recovering well.  Lost nearly 8kg now. 5 was in the first 4 days, birth stuff and fluid. its still good its starting to come off.  i went for a walk on the treadmill yesterday. i tried walking outside but Tyler woke up half way through and screamed all the way home. the only routine he is in at the moment is wanting to eat as soon as he wakes up!!  so at least in the treadmill i can jump off if he wakes.

all up i still have 20kg to loose.  i would like to loose another 10 before a wedding in Oct. we will see.

we are still combine feeding him.  I bf most of the time but he will only feed for 10mins and fall asleep! nothing i do wakes him. so i express which has bought back my milk supply.  Formula is a last resort if he refuses to settle 10-20mls and he is out like a light!

I am so happy right now :)