15w4d

I can definitely tell the days that peanut is having a growth spurt! I feel floored today.  So tired and can't function, weak and dizzy, sick. Nearly passed out in the lab this morning! Oh and STARVING! I can't seem to eat enough.  I had been doing well with my eating, and I am still eating healthy stuff just tons of it! I eat and 10mins later I am starving again! OMG peanut is a pig. lol well thats my excuse I know it has nothing to do with peanut being hungry! Problem is if I don't eat the weakness and headaches and dizziness get really bad, so when trying to get work done its near impossible.  The only option is to EAT!

I picked up my expensive MCN last night. Love it! It is way better than the cheap one.  So I will probably get about 30 of those and a few cheap ones too.  I figure I will be going through nappies like there is no tomorrow so I will use the good ones and if I get busy or bubby gets busy so to speak i have the cheap ones there as a back up.

On Sunday I spoke to soon about not throwing up.  I went to lunch with my mum and sister.  I had the headache in the morning but OMG it amplified by early afternoon.  I got home from lunch and threw it all up, and had to go to bed, every time I rolled over I had to get up to throw up. :( I haven't had migraines this bad in years. I tried using an ice pack but it didn't help. I slept until about 4pm when I knew I had no choice but to go shopping. The headache had eased as I had taken some panadine but OMG what a painful shopping experience.  DH was wonderful enough to clean the house.  He also managed to put up the wall paper boarder in the nursery.  It looks so good. The theme is coming along nicely. All green :) so cute.  When I was picking up the bumgenius nappy from the post office yesterday I walked in the door and they had the cutest little stuffed giraffes there. I got a little cream one.  I know peanut is going to LOVE that one!

Nothing much else, still feeling the same flutter type feelings. Not regularly or anything like that but every now and again. I figured a growth spurt must be coming though because my tummy has been feeling REALLY full the last couple of days. Like peanut had no room.  Low and behold this morning lots of round ligament stretching going on.  Its eased through out the day but can still feel it when I walk. Its good though hoping it means I pop a bit more soon!

I can't wait to see peanut again, its been 3 weeks and still 3 weeks till my OB appointment and 4 weeks until my morphology scan.  I know its OK and growing strong I can just feel it but I still worry about it.  I read a really really sad story on BubHub last night.  In short a lady pregnant with her 4th went for her 20week morph scan. Bub had amputation from the knee down on one side and the other leg was severely deformed.  She was coming to terms with it whilst waiting for Amnio results and really thought it was possible and would be OK to raise this child with a deformity. Unfortunately the Amnio results came back not good, she hasn't said what yet she was too upset but he was being induced today.  Its things like this that absolutely rip my heart out! I know people have still births and things but its just so sad.  A miscarriage before 12weeks is so hard, I went through two, but to actually be able to hold your baby after actually giving birth to it, I can't even comprehend how painful that must be. My little peanut is about 12cm long now from head to bum, it looks like a real baby but still so precious and dependent on me. After reading this it started to worry me, I can't wait to make it past that 20week scan now and then past 24weeks. Its still that age old, please stay strong peanut, mummy loves you and can't wait to meet you in September! I still feel blessed everyday for this little peanut.