Time is flying past

Tomorrow our little man will be 3 weeks old! I can't believe how fast that time has just flown by. We have had a few up and down days but we are getting there.  Friday last week was probably the worst.  The little man got circumcised and it was a very traumatic day. It started out fine, except that they recommend they don't feed for 2 hours before hand. Well Tyler didn't like that at all, but was fine once he ate after the procedure.  Everything had gone well but on the way home he pooped which was fine but it wasn't until we got home and I changed him that I saw the poo had gone all on the inside of the bell.  We put him in the bath and had to use a syringe to try and get the poo out.  This of course hurt and then we had to put betadine on and that hurt so poor Tyler was screaming down the house.  He wouldn't settle at all after this and got worse and worse.   After 6 hours I noticed he still hadn't peed so I started to get worried that his pain was caused from perhaps him not being able to pee.  :( So I rang the clinic and they said the Dr would ring me back.  During this time Tyler just got more and more and more upset so I decided we needed to take him back.

He ended up peeing a few hours later and everything was fine but I was glad I took him back because I would rather be safe than sorry. The Dr gave him some children's panadol which helped to settle him down a lot.  I had to give him one more dose that night and since has been fine.  The bell should come off in the next day or so and hopefully it is all over.

It was such a hard day though, I had 2 hours of broken sleep that night and normally DH takes him in the morning once he gets up and I get a couple more hours sleep. I really cherish those couple of hours. But because his appointment was at 8am I hadn't had that sleep, so I was really tired.  I had a piece of toast in the morning but that was it food wise, I hadn't drunk any water and all this on top of seeing him so distressed I was so upset.  I was so angry at myself for putting him through all that pain.  I know the reason why we got it done so young is that he wont remember it but it didn't help on the day.  I couldn't stop crying.

Yesterday I finally got a good amount of food into me, which I so needed because with the lack of sleep and not getting much food my milk supply had dramatically dropped off.  But today its back.  I can actually feel it let down which is good. Although Tyler is going through a growth spurt and is constantly eating today.

He is still having his tummy issues.   Its more gas than reflux but we found this stuff called infants friend and I give that to him every few hours rather than with every feed and he has been a completely different baby.  Much more content and happier.  Not always in pain.  I still have to use the Stomach calm every now and again when I can hear the fluid coming back up and can see it causing him burning pain, but its not too often which is good.

I am getting used to functioning on around 3-4hours of broken sleep a night.  During the night Tyler doesn't feed for long, but only sleeps in 45min blocks.  So I am up constantly but not for very long. By the time I go back to bed, settle and get to sleep he is waking up again! Its all good though it wont last forever.  I find getting up at night easy, its the dawn wake up I struggle with.  I am not sure why, whether its the light or that its FREEZING at that time of the morning but I really do struggle to get up.  I got some eye drops the other day too and using them I think is really helping because my eyes don't feel like they are constantly burning.

Not much else happening, life is on Tyler time :)  been able to get out of the house more often and its been really good.  I find that I can get out and I handle it well.  I either use formula or expressed milk whilst out, I am not confident enough to breast feed in public yet.  If I could attach Tyler straight to the boob it might help but I have to attach the nipple shield first and that can be awkward and Tyler can get stroppy and wave his hands about knocking the shield off etc so it can take some time to get him on.  But we will get there and until then I am happy using the other stuff whilst out.

I didn't think it was possible but I am falling more and more in love with this little man every day :)